losing amelia (on hold)

Guilt

That Saturday morning when I woke up I rushed to grab my clothes and practically ran out of Amelia's house. When I got back to my house, no too far from Amelia's I locked myself up in my room and refused to leave until Monday morning when I had to go back to school. I wore shades praying that no one (especially Raquel and Amelia) would notice me. I even got to Mr.Turner's class on time instead of being late like usual so it wouldn't be obvious I was at school. Mr. Turner wouldn't let me go unnoticed though and commented on my being one time. Everyone in the class turned to look at me, including Amelia. I couldn't take my eyes away from her even though I wanted to so badly. Mr. Turner also noticed my sunglasses and forced me to take off them off.

That wasn't the worst part, was when Mr.Turner had assigned the class a project due by February. For the project we had to be working with a partner Mr. Turner assigned and base the project off the book: 30 Days to Live. We could choose anything we wanted to do and in our presentation discuss everything we did and the consequences of our actions, good or bad. Everything we were going to do had to be documented in some sort of way to prove that we had actually did it. The whole time Mr. Turner had explained the project I couldn't stop thinking about Amelia. She had looked so pretty that day. Her hair pulled back in a neat ponytail with a pink sweater on. It appeared as if she had barely any make-up on and somehow that made her more appealing to me. I especially loved her brown eyes and-

"Bobbie, did you hear me?"

"Huh sir?"

"For this project you'll be working with Amelia. Please start paying attention in my class." Mr. Turner angrily said.

"Okay and sorry Mr. Turner."

Suddenly realization had hit, I was working with Amelia on one of the biggest projects of the year. The girl who had gotten me to cheat on my girlfriend Raquel who I had been dating for two years. She was also the girl who had me thinking about her too much and all I felt like doing was being around her even though I had only truly known her for four days total. She also was the girl who I had slept with after knowing her for one night and the girl that was going to show me a new world. I was frightened as hell; was I going to even make it out alive after she was done?

Mr. Turner continued lecturing the class about the project and I only felt panic inside. Panic about Raquel and about Amelia. I couldn't imagine not hiding what happened Friday night from her and not being confronted by Amelia about the event. The whole thing made me want to barf. How come I had done that? How was I so silly?

Once the lecture had ended, we had to meet up with our assigned partners. I walked over to Amelia's desk and grabbed a chair to sit in.

"So . . . I guess we're going to be doing a project based on something similar to what we were just about to begin." She said, causing me to chuckle a bit.

"I guess so."

"So do you want to meet up during lunch and begin the project?" She asked. I wanted to tell her no and just run up to Mr. Turner and ask for a new partner but no. I was too silly and too naive.

"Yeah where do you want to meet up?"

"How about outside of the front of the school?" She said quickly getting up as the bell rang.

"Okay. See you then." I said also getting up. She smiled at me and left.

The next class I had before lunch was Geography. In that class were all my jock friends and worst of all Raquel. I believed that my friends knew I didn't stay at the party and had left with Amelia. They didn't mention any thing of it though and just gave me looks that said "We'll talk about it later." I was still shocked how one night could change everything in my life so quickly. I was so silly to actually sleep with Amelia. I had known better!

There was just something about her though that intrigued me and left me feeling this weird feeling inside that no one - not even Raquel could make me feel. I loved it, but at the same time it frightened me. Another part of me wondered as we were discussing the issues in the Middle East whether or not what Amelia and I had done was just a one time thing. Would she ever expect me to just drop Raquel to be with her?

Raquel kept looking over at me curiously during class and I had begun to panic more than I originally had. This was all too much for me to handle. I rose my hand and asked to be excused. The teacher, Mr. Reed had allowed me to leave and I rushed out of the classroom, almost tripping over a chair. When I was out of the classroom I ran down the hall and into the bathroom. I stood in the bathroom for about five minutes looking at myself in the mirror. What had I become? Why is this all happening? The guilt is eating me alive!

I took a few deep breathes and ran my hands through my hair and walked out the bathroom door. In doing so, I ran into the cause of my problem, knocking her over.

"Are you okay?" I asked as I helped her up and grabbed her books that had fallen during the collision.

"Yeah I'm okay thanks Bobbie." She replied already heading to her destination.

"Wait!" I called after her as I grabbed ahold of her wrist. "Let me grab my stuff from my class and we can leave a little early to get started on that project." She nodded her head and slipped her hand into mine causing me to feel happiness and panic. I took my phone out and texted my friend Chad telling him to grab my stuff and bring it to me outside of the boys bathroom. He came out in the next two to three minutes and gave me a weird look when he noticed Amelia and that fact that we were holding hands.

Amelia led us out of the school and back into her car before she drove us the closet McDonald's to grab a bite to eat. She and I sat inside and she looked out the window simply watching people walk in and out and driving by. I took the opportunity to examine her. She looked fantastic like always and just looking at her excited me. There were things that had to be discussed though between us, not just about the project, but about us.

"Are you going to mention Friday night at all or what?" I ask, she kept her gaze out the window and didn't respond for a few moments.

"I was waiting for you to do it."

I started to get frustrated, Amelia had pretty much manipulated me and gotten me to do something I would have never normally done before, yet she didn't have anything to say about it.

"Did you like it?" I asked, blushing a bit unconsciously leaving Amelia with a smirk on her face.

"You could use some experience." She stated and laughed a bit as she popped another fry in her mouth. I stared at her with my mouth wide open.

"How much have you even had? How can you judge me based off of one night, I'm almost positive that isn't fair. How do you know that you don't need some experience either Amelia?" I said becoming more agitated with her as she slowly ate her fries smirking and insulting me.

"I've had more than you that's a fact and I can judge you off of one night just like you judged me off of that one night. I've never had any complaints either Bobbie that's how I know." Damn. She was always good at comebacks. I raised my brow at her and she laughed, knowing she had won the argument. She then leaned over the table and whispered to me. "I can help you get more experience though. We can just keep it a secret from Raquel."

"Why are you so okay with being with me when you know I'm in a relationship with Raquel?"

"That's what makes all of this fun." She smirked. "But this isn't all going to be about that Bobbie. We're going to go on an adventure today just so you know." She said getting up and throwing our empty tray into the pile of trays and walking out, leaving me to hurry behind. We got into the car, but didn't head back to school. No, Amelia had something else in mind like heading to the subway station.

"Why are we here?" I asked looking at her confused.

"Be quiet and you'll see." She said hopping onto the subway and dragging me on before the door shut.

What did I get myself into?

Author''s Note:

*Okay sorry for the long wait everyone! I've been struggling to come up with ideas for Losing Amelia and Freedom. Damn writers block! Haha but now I have some (what I think are) great ideas for both stories and I can't tell you when exactly I'll update next but I'm hoping it'll be soon! Comment and Vote pleeaassseeee! :* I love you all hahha* ~daisiesarepretty