My best friend, the only one who actually understands me won't talk to me for reasons I don't even know because she won't talk to me. And I can't tell if I'm so upset that I can't cry or if it just hasn't set in yet ...
So I guess ill sit here and watch greys anatomy and eat icecream. And on any other day I would have someone to lean on someone to listen to this. Those people that I would lean on are either not talking to me or aren't responding to my messages. The only difference is one of them would respond if they could the other wants me dead... Or atleast I think they do...
Guys I don't know who the hell reads this or if anyone even does but I'm about to loose my best friend because she says she's done with me but she would tell me that no she told my other friend to tell me that. I'm about to loose one of the only people that understands me or what it's like to be me (that sounds cocky but it isn't). If she actually follows through with her being done with me next year will be hell for so many reasons that she knows and in the end I think this is going to slowly kill us both...
I lied she seems just fine like nothing bad will come of this for her at least but what she doesn't know is that she is literally my rock , the person I need in my life, and she's just fine but that's okay I guess.
Overall my day has been shit and will continue to be shit. There's one good thing and that's not technically until tomorrow so I suppose I'll save that for tomorrow and just let this day be done...
