Sometimes you feel like you can take on the world all by yourself,
like you don't need anybody.
And other times, you sit in your room, crying your eyes out in the middle of the night,
because you feel so alone.
The beauty of friendship is that there's someone there for you at 4 am, when you're falling apart,
but also at 2 pm when you're loving life and they make you love it even more.
The sad part is, some of us are unable to experience that kind of friendship.
They feel left out, not good enough or like a waste of space.
Then can never tell when someone is being real with them, or when someone's talking to them out of pity.
That, I can tell you, is the absolute Worst feeling in the world.
Allow me to tell you a little story.
I used to have a friend whom I shared everything with. I get attached to something or someone quite easily, so did I with this person. I was determined to make her my best friend and to make me hers.
It took us about a year to get as close as most best friends are, though I wasn't comfortable enough to do things like shower at her place or change before going to bed when she was in the same room, those things still felt a little awkward.
After 5 years of great friendship, we still didn't shower at each other's place and didn't change in the same room.
Our friendship started to fade.
I got a boyfriend and she felt left behind. Though I tried really hard to give both of them equally as much of attention, we grew apart.
A year later (now), we barely talk, only see each other in school and I feel like we're barely even friends anymore.
I can tell you this: Even though I still have my boyfriend, I need a friend. I constantly feel alone and it's killing me and my boyfriend.
So what I want you guys to know, is please cherish the (good) friends you have now, because whether you want them to or not, every friend can leave and every friendship can fade.
Goodnight
(1:15 am)
