There will be talk about self harm in this chapter.** Please don't read if you might relapse. 😔
When I said it was just the beginning I meant of the self harm. Yes, pulling your hair out and pinching yourself to the point where it really hurts is self harm. Any way to hurt yourself intentionally is considered self harm. I didn't know that at the time. I just knew it calmed me down from the mental abuse I received from my stepdad. He'd hurt me, physically and mentally. He'd slap my mom around and yell at her. Every day it got worse. He'd drink and do drugs. He did nothing, he didn't even have a job. Let's fast forward a little bit. My older brothers Jakarri, Ashton, and Cam would get me, my twin brother, and my baby brother Malachi and hide us away and lock us up. They would handle, or try to handle my mom and Rufus. If gotten worse. Id been hurting myself worse and worse. I was 11. I'd been using scissors to cut my skin on my wrists. My mom had stopped caring out us all it seemed. By now my mom had two more children. Another set of twins. Yes. My baby sister and brother Noah and Summer. They were both only 2 years old. Malachi was no longer a newborn. He was 7. Cam was 13, Jakarri was 15, and Ash was 17, turning 18 that year. Next to Gabe, Ash was my next favorite brother. I remember the day he came out to my mom about being gay. She slapped him, and told him to leave. That he was disgusting and could die. He left then, and I never saw him again. Me and Gabe always showed up to school with bruises. Gabe came with a black eye one day and we both got questioned. Gabe immediately began to cry. I told them he ran into a doorknob, that what I was told to tell them if they asked. I was questioned on my arms and legs. I sat and stared quietly. They called DCFS and my mom. Summer, Cam, and Jakarri got taken away and given to other families out of state. I cried and cut myself every night. I never told anyone. And I didn't plan on it.
Please if you struggle with any type of self harm PLEASE message me. I'm a really good listener and I'm really understanding. Please I can try to help.💀😔 I love you guys. ~ Moonlight ✨💋 xoxo
