Do you think I sit here and WANT to be made fun of? do you think I want to sit here and let that happen-do you really think I like being put down everyday at school..home...or any where else?
Do you think I like cutting myself? do you think I said one day " ohhhh, I wanna cut! seems fun!". Do you think if I stopped for a day-I won't ever do it again? do you think it's funny when I watch myself bleed?
Do you think I like starving myself? do you think it's fun to always be surrounded from the one thing I have been trying to escape- and yet you enjoy it everyday?
Do you think doing it in front of me is funnier?
Do you think I like to vomit everyday after eating for fun? With my inner voice telling me "just one more time" every single day so far? Making false promises of a beautiful body?
Do you think I want to take up that knife- and end it all? do you think it's fun to be pushed to this point? do you think karma won't get you back? do you think you could say something once and it won't push me past breaking point?
Do you think I sit here..everyday.. crying and dying slowly on the inside just for your entertainment? Do you think I WANT that-do you think it was a CHOICE-or do you think it easy to fix?
Do you think I'm stupid because of what I do? do you think you could just live with yourself-knowing your the one who did it? do you think it's not gunna bite you in the butt-how dare you even THINK you know my story!!! all you know is my actions-not the things that led up to them- or what happened after.
Do you really think that?
Or are you like me-thinking I'll keep up the act so they don't send me to a mental asylum?
Do you ever think ANY of these things?
(^*authors note: sorry if it's not good- I had to put all my feelings and shit out there...
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