Unrequited

06

I've done it.

What? You might ask.

I have acquired a girlfriend. Yes be proud of me.

And no it's not Taylor.
Even if I really want her to be.
No. Rylee.

Taylor:
I just don't know what to do now.

Me:
Do you have a problem with us dating Taylor?

Taylor:
No.

Me:
Then why are you giving me so much shit? You told me that you wanted to wait until senior year for a relationship. Why are you deciding to want one with me after the fact that I start dating someone?

Taylor:
That's not it. I want you to be happy. But I just love you.

Me:
Well. Is there anyone else?

This is a test.

Taylor:
Yeah.. Wren.

Me:
You're welcome.

Taylor:
What?
OH MY GOD.
THEY ASKED ME OUT.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Me:
Yeah whatever.

Taylor:
Do you have a problem with us dating?

Me:
Yes...

Taylor:
WHY

Me:
You lied to me..

I put my phone down and rubbed my eyes.
How could I be so stupid?

I grabbed my keys and walked out of my house.

I have to clear my head because the thoughts I had were something else.

Imagine if you fell asleep and drifted into the other lane. Then you got hit by a truck.

Would that hurt half as much as this?

What about if you jumped off of a 40 story building?

The chances of anything hurting worse than this are slim.

I parked in front of a house and got out. I knocked on the door and it opened.

"I didn't know where else to go."
Sydney and I have had our ups and downs. But I really needed someone and she looked at me.

She nodded and hugged me.

"What happened?"
I explained everything to her.
"I think that it's best if you talk to her."

"I can't do that."

Taylor:
I'm sorry..
I never wanted to hurt you.
I only said it because I knew how things were before. I didn't want to cause you to go back to that dark place.
Rylee. Please talk to me.
Ry..
I already feel terrible.

"Why aren't you answering her?"

"I can't bear seeing her name." I said. 

Taylor:
God everyone hates me.
I hurt the only person who gave two shits about me.
Rylee. I understand if you don't wanna be friends anymore. But at least read these.

Me:
I read them.
I don't hate you.
I just don't know if I can see you the same way anymore.

Taylor:
Meet me at the spot so we can talk this out?

Me: sure.

"I'm gonna go talk to her. Thanks for letting me break down here."

"Anytime." She said. "You wanna go out for pancakes or something tomorrow?"

"Yeah. That'd be really nice." I walked out and drove to Taylor and i's spot.