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     kayden's thoughts
       I was randomly thinking about everything that had to do with my past. that's never a good idea considering that my past used to be amazing but had left a big impact on my life. I used to be popular, I used to have friends and a great relationship. I used to have more friends than the one friend I have now. Jenna. She's always been there for me and I love her to death, she's like a sister to me. but I really can't complain. my life may not be perfect but I have the best friend in the universe and I still have my hyper little brother and my sister, Aaliyah and James. although James is never really around much but rather with his friends, And Aaliyah is usually working trying to help mom out, I still love them. being younger than me, they both dealt with the whole dad thing better than I did. I admire both James and Liyah for doing that and for always reminding me that tears are only aloud to go down your cheeks when you feel a big hole has taken over your heart. we all hated dad. he would always hit my mom and never let us do anything but stay in our room. he would yell at us; so they assumed that a big hole wasn't taking over me. at that point, I didn't care about that man. I cared about my mom. she was depressed and never wanted to get out of the house or even her room. I felt bad for her. dylan was there to comfort me. until he cheated on me with a girl who I thought was my friend. where has the time gone? it's been five months yet I still can't get over the fact that men are pigs and that they don't deserve my time. but sometimes I wonder, is it the opposite?

am I not worth THEIR time?

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okay, depressing I know but later on it'll get less sad and more exciting! be patient, that times almost here :) thank you if you're reading this! I honestly didn't know what to write for this little chapter but I just needed to get something out there to base my other chapters off of. It's sucky but if you read it ; I thank you so much! it really means a lot :) .

~ vicky