Friends

The Anxiety

Why is my heart beating faster but then slower when I think about it. What is this?

I stayed quiet about it. Sometimes, it feels like my heart skips a beat. Even then I stayed quiet. Until one night it happened again and I couldn't stay quiet any longer. I had to tell me mom.

"Whats wrong?" My mom said.

My heart. It felt like it skipped a beat.

"What? Do you need to go to the hospital?"

No.

"Are you worried about someone?"

No.

I lied. I was worried about Emma.

"Let me call my friend."

They talked and then my mom googled what is happening.

"Are you dehydrated? Because that can cause it."

No. I drink enough water.

"I think it's anxiety. I have it too."

I listened while she explained what anxiety is.

But sometimes, when I think about my heart, it slows down.

"That happens. When you think your heart is beating fast, just take a minute, take a deep breath and calm down. If you go to the doctor, they will say you are fine but you feel like you aren't. But you are, it's just you have anxiety."

Great. I developed anxiety because of the break up. Now it's never gonna be fixed because Emma and I will never be friends again.