《 I'll wait for you babe 》 zach abels & jesse rutherford

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Zach.-

I was laying in my bed, looking at the ceiling, thinking about the last time I saw the boys, thinking about the last time I saw Jesse... 3 weeks ago I guess? Long time ago, sadly. Everyone is out of town, having fun with their respective girlfriends, I am the only idiot here, alone.

Trying to avoid the bad thoughts about being single, I try to communicate with Jesse, but it is so hard having a huge crush on him, doing something related to him makes me feel so nervous. Everything started when we were drunk as fuck at my birthday party last year.

"Damn dude, this party is amazing, there are girls everywhere, and nice girls, you did it great Zach" he said when he sat down next to me, I felt dizzy and I think he felt the same. I couln't answer, I wanted to puke everytime I opened my mouth. He noticed that I didn't say something to him, maybe he tought that I gave a shit about his opinion, because he looked a little worried. "Zach Zach Zach Zach" he said constantly trying to catch my attention. I looked up and saw his brown eyes, with that eye contact I tried to question him what was wrong, but I repeat, I was drunk and I'm pretty sure the face that I made in that moment was a resting bitch face. He started to look more worried "Dude, why are you doing this to me? Your silence is a torture". That phrase made me smile and I proceed to talk "If I talk to you I wil vomit, I swear". Jesse put his forehead against mine "I know that my face is disgusting but talk to me". I could smell his breath, it smelled of alcohol and cigarette. "What the fuck. Your face isn't disgusting, you're like the most perfect boy I have seen in my entire life, now stop being annoying please" I said while I had that drunk smirk in my face. His face was priceless, he showed me his beautiful pearly whites and that made me smile. "I love you Zach, thank you for existing", I laughed and I said "You're welcome". He started giving me kisses on my cheek, it felt nice and I blushed, I didn't stop him from doing that, but I felt strange, I felt loved and I wanted to feel that way for ever. He noticed my blushing "Oh boy, you're red like a fucking tomato" He laughed but he didn't stop. He was getting closer to my mouth, I wanted it, I wanted that kiss to happen, so I grabbed his face with my hands and I said "Don't be mad at me, I'm drunk and I'm taking advantage of you", he didn't answered, he just smiled. I was weak, I tried to kiss him but I couldn't. "Oh you fucking idiot, just do it", for a minute I thought he was angry, but I realized he wanted that to happen too. I laughed and I kissed him softly in the lips, I didn't want to exceed, but he did it anyway. I felt his tongue in my mouth, at first it felt strange, I was kissing my best friend and I fucking liked it. His cold hands grabbed my face and I touched his neck. I pushed him away and I started laughing nervously. "What the fuck did just happened" I said to him in his ear, he didn't react, he was looking to the floor, I was scared, he was going to hit or he wanted to vomit. The last think I remember from that night is Jessestaring at my eyes for a long time, smiling, saying things that I couldn't hear, and then, he sleeping in my legs.

What a night.

I smiled remembering that moment, it was magical, but it makes me sad. Since that moment my life was ruined, this crush ruined my life and maybe it will ruin his life -and relationship- too if he knows about this someday.

I grabbed my phone and I try to text Jesse, nervously I start to write:

"Hey, when are you coming back around?? Don't be a pussy and come back soon okay, bye"

My hands were sweating, I throw my phone away and I stood up and go for a glass of water. The cold water cools my warm hands, shit I am nervous. I tried to disconnect and I turned on the TV, there's nothing good, like always. I just sat in the couch waiting an answer from Jesse.

I fell asleep for 1 hour. My neck hurts and I'm hungry, I decide to go and buy something to eat. I grabbed my keys and my phone, Jesse texted me back:

"im back u lil idiot, i came back like 2 days ago lmao. wanna see me??? nicee, i will be there in 2 hours baby, u better be ready ;)"

Jesse will be here in 1 hour and my house is a fucking mess, I am a fucking mess.