Lonely... (Boyxboy) (yaoi)

Detention.

Sam..... Who was he? A random kid who supposedly isn't scared of me? Weird. I chose to drop it and continue my horrible life. School ended, I planned to go home and lock myself in my room and probably cut myself again. Here the word again? Yep I attempted plenty of times but it doesn't work that well when your mom and dad are doctors and surgeons and they know you have tried before. It sucks! I just want this horrible life to end. They have gotten me therapy before but that didn't help it actually made it much more worse. But I have to go to that teachers class today it's probably detention. It's my first day and I am being punished. That's a record God. Anything else you mother fucker!?! Go ahead and ruin my damn life because I don't fucking care anymore.
Hello? I walked into the classroom and looked around. No one was here. What the fuck? I had to waist my time walking here when nobody is fucking here. Shit and my mom and dad will get pissed because this stupid ass teacher probably didn't tell them I have detention. They probably are thinking I jumped off a building trying to commit suicide.... Wait why haven't I done that yet? Oh teacher thank you for letting me think now I know another way to get out of this horrible world I'll jump off the school and kill myself. Thank you sooooo much! I was so happy I chose to skip all the way to the roof.
I stood on the ledge of this three story building planning to dive so I have zero percent chance of living until I hear it.... Sirens... Someone must of heard me and called the cops. I looked down add there was an ambulance and fire trucks and cop cars and then I see him. That damn teacher. He was holding this little boys hand and that boy was crying I saw the fear in his eyes. And then there he was.... Sam. He was standing next to that teacher. He looked scared and worried. That teacher had a megaphone and said Max! Please think about what you are about to do. Is it really worth it. I looked at him and smirked. Oh well mr.teacher this is worth is because I have wanted to do this for a while! I pulled up my sleeves and showed everyone who was watching my scars from trying. I even took off my shirt exposing my body because I have cut my chest and I have stabbed a knife in my stomach before. I showed everyone my scars from attempting. And everything around me went dead silent. I felt everyone's eyes staring at my scars.
And I screamed how did you even find out I was doing this you weren't in the damn classroom. He looked at me with self pity. My youngest hid under my desk because u stormed into the classroom so he was afraid and he heard what you said he got scared so he told me. I was staring at that little boy and he had so much fear his whole body was shaking. He started wailing. Ohh shut your fucking mouth! You probably wouldn't of had to deal with this if you didn't tell your damn daddy. Now you have to watch someone die and blood fly everywhere. I laughed to myself. I felt my mind go crazy. Who do you think you are telling me what to do? Tsk. I was so excited. Oohh I'm so excited I have to do it now. I was about to do it until I saw him. Carter. My older brother who left me for collage two years ago when this all started. My eyes widened and I just looked.
Carter!?? He looked at me and ran in front of everyone. Max! What the fuck! Why are you doing this what is going on!? Oh yeah he left me when I was depressed. It was his fault. I started crying in anger I screamed WHY DO YOU CARE ITS ALL YOUR FAULT ANYWAY!! I was wiping the tears away from my blotchy eyes. I watched him look at my scars and cover his mouth. He started crying. I have never seen my brother cry before. Max, please don't do this I'm so sorry. I love you. Please don't leave me idiot!! I fucking love you to death. Those words hit me right in the chest. I love you.... He never said that to me he didn't say that to me when he left or when I was depressed.
I looked at him and I just for some reason a burst of anger surged through my body. Tch! Who cares? I saw the confused look in his eye and I smiled. You have never said that to me so how do I know that you aren't full of shit? I started cracking up that tears were streaming down my face. I saw people look at me like I'm crazy. That made me laugh harder. Then it happened... I slipped.
Everything went to slow motion. I was falling to my death. After years of waiting and attempting it has finally come. I spread my arms and legs out and I just smiled... Finally. I heard people scream in horror as I fell to my death and my brother screaming in pain trying to get to me but he was to slow. Then I felt it. I fell but I'm not dead. My body's soar from the impact but I'm not dead. Huh what happened? Why am I not dead!! Why am I not fucking dead! I started crying in anger. Then I looked. I was in someone's arms. We were on the ground but he wasn't hurt either. Oh my lord... It was Sam.