My supposed nightmare (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) Editing

WTF!

Demi's P.O.V

So, Marissa decided to come to surprise me again and also tell me that she will be staying on tour with me for all of the Neon Light tours. Which don't get me wrong is awesome but I don't like surprises sometimes. Anyways that's not why the title of this chapter is called WTF! It's called WTF! because I found out that my little sister Madison is staying with Kenzie till the Neon Lights tour starts.Like WTF! Why is she with Kenzie and not with me? and How do they know each other? Did I mention that they still aren't here and the tour started a few days ago? Izzy called Marissa telling her that she's bringing Madison to the Anaheim concert which I don't get because Madison is supposed to be with Kenzie, not this Izzy person who I haven't even met.

All I know out of all this is that I need to apologize to Kenzie and tell her the truth about her boyfriend Ian. According to Zach, she's falling in-love with him again or that's what Zach is making it seem like because whenever he gets off the phone with her he gets really angry and just runs out of the room. That's one thing I like about Zach he would never actually stay in the room and yell and all that. Instead, he storms out to cool off and then comes back apologizing for storming out. Don't get me wrong he's a nice guy and all that good stuff, I would for sure be in-love with him if I wasn't trying to figure out my confusing feelings.

Maybe you guys can help me? So like I have an attraction to three people. I know it sounds wrong but I can't help it. I have a small crush for Zach but I can't see it developing like I don't see my relationship with him going anywhere, well romantically. Then there's his sister, my feelings for her just confuse me in general, I've never liked a girl as much as I like her. I don't know just being around her pulls me in.
Lastly my long lasting attraction to Wilmer, he's always been there for me and I will always love him.
He is a great guy, he never once left me, even after treatment. I just, I am not really sure what to do. Gosh, why does the heart have a mind of its own!

Oops, I think I forgot to mention that Wilmer is flying into L.A tonight so that we could catch up and he's going on the road with us for all of February which is great (btw guys I made that up).
I know I am going to tell him about these confusing feelings I am having. I've been really open with Wilmer for a while. He never judges me, he supports me and listens to what I have to say. Every once in a while he will give me advice but he doesn't judge which is one thing I love about him. Oh, right I should also mention that Zach kind of has a thing for someone. I don't know if I should say who tho. Do you guys wanna know who he has a thing for or is it just not that important?

Wow, okay. So I am basically just going to rant this whole thing. Since it's sort of my day off and I am kind of sick. The doctor put me on bed rest for a week but you guys know me. Even if I am sick the show must go on. I wouldn't cancel my concerts. My Lovatics will be my bed rest. Wait nooo.... that didn't come out right. That's not what I meant.
You'll need to get your minds out of the gutter. Ya nasties. Although I still love you guys! <3

So I am just going to keep ranting till Wilmer comes, Dad told him I am on bed rest so we are staying in. Even though I kind of wanted to go out but there's no fighting with dad and Wilmer especially when it's them against me! It's totally unfair! I always get out numbered! Even with Dallas and Mom they always tag team on me. lol, When I saw Amber and my little niece and nephew they tagged team on me too. Guess it just runs in the family! :)

2014 Is going to be a great year. I am working on my next album. Got the girls on tour with me. Sixth Harmony lol ( it's Fifth Harmony + Demi together) and also Little Mix. Later on, Cher is going to take Little Mix place. I am just excited to see all My Lovatics on this tour.

Anyways y'all probably don't really care about them. Since this is all about me! lol, I am not trying to sound conceded or anything but it is about me. You can complain to the writer about this shit. Not my fucking fault! Oops sorry for any of you that don't like swear words!

Hmm, what else? Well, it's like 6 pm already and Wilmer said he would be here by 8 pm. I just hope he doesn't decide to get here earlier like he usually does. I don't understand why people say a certain time and then come before or after. Like geez, do as you say and come at the time! (lol My friends actually did this to me on New Year's Eve)

What to do for the next two hours! Idk what to do! I am so bored and to be completely honest I am also lazy! My bed is so comfy! I don't wanna get up! Good thing Wilmer is feeding me or I wouldn't have gotten up for food. Well like I would have eventually but it would take me a long long time!

I know I am not supposed to skip meals! I know and you guys would probably get mad at me so I kind of just like brought my whole kitchen into my room. By that I mean I brought anything that didn't have to be cooked or heated up and for drinking anything that didn't have to be refrigerated.

So I know I've been ranting this whole thing but nothing has really been going on. I will admit that I really miss having Kenzie around. Things are just not the same without her. It kind of feels like a part of me is missing. Almost like our friendship or having her around in general helps me breath and relax. I really don't want to think about her right now but I can't help it. I especially get upset when I think about her and Ian. I really really don't like him. I feel like he is hiding something. I know I helped him on their dates and all but he makes her happy, something I am to afraid to do. She deserves someone who will make her laugh and not cry. Someone who will make her frown turn into a smile. Someone that would do all those romantic stuff for her that she's to embarrassed to actually say she wants them. Someone that would get her meaningful gift rather than gifts of value. Someone who would give her time to hang out with friends knowing that she hasn't seen them in a while. Most importantly someone who can also be her best friend, that can sit there with her for hours talking while they stare into each others eyes. The one person who can tell anything and everything just by looking at her face.That's the type of person I think she deserves. I guess in her eyes Ian is that person.

How about a change of subject? I know I got all sappy and like sentimental but that's how I feel and I also feel like I am not that person for her. I could never be that person for her. It's kind of sad but idk. I just think that these are short living feelings. That I only feel this way because she doesn't treat me like everyone else. She treats me like me, like the person I am deep deep deep down. The person that not most people see but she does for some odd reason and I kind of like it. It's sort of exhausting hiding that one piece of me that certain people get to see but it's not that big of a deal either.

I think this is all I really have to say/rant about. Thank you guys for reading this even though you may not care or if it may seem boring but thanks anyways. I am thinking about taking a nap before Wilmer shows up, it's a good thing that he has his own key so like I don't have to get up. Love you guys <3 byeeee :)

---Author's Note----

Hey, guys sorry if this chapter was kind of boring or not what like I usually write. Just been going through some stuff and I am trying to figure them out, Plus I didn't want to put my issues into the story line so I would rather rant. Also HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! <3 It's Officially 2014...Anyways hope you enjoy this chapter, I will try to get back to how I usually write unless you guys like this? If you do let me know in the comments below. Another thing. I am on break so I might be able to upload another chapter soon. Hopefully! :) THANK YOU GUYS FOR READING MY STORY AND FOR THOSE WHO READ MY AUTHORS NOTE IT MEANS A LOT!!! okay that's it. Till next time and remember you are all beautiful inside and out and I love you......

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