No Way Out

The Reflection

As I sat there tied up i thought
to myself, how could i let it get this far? "Lord i ask that u forgive me for my sins and you keep my son safe, and if your ready to take me please take me now. No suffering." Suddenly I heard several foot steps trooping up the stairs to the room i was in, I quickly wiped the tear off my cheek with my shoulder. As the door roughly opened i took a deep breath. "WHO THE FUCK YOU TALKING TO BITCH!" The roar of his deep booming voice made my heart ache. "YOU BETTA BE TALKIN TO GOD". The other two guys who walked in with him let out a short laugh. I didnt dare look up. I would never give this bitch ass nigga the satisfaction of seeing me at his mercy.

"Oh so u think you bad huh? I made you..." I couldnt let him see me so weak. Suddenly i felt a cool metal barrel against the top of my head. He clocked his gun and put his lips by my ear. "I said Look at me ".
I tilted my head towards his gun. "If your gonna shoot me then fucking do it muthafukka ". He didn't say anything except he and his friends just laughed. All i could think about was my son. He needed his mama. I couldn't give up on him I knew how it felt to not have your mother.
"Boss let me handle this bitch" One guy said. Tre snared his nose at him and told them to get the fuck out and lock the door behind them. He threw me on the bed and set beside me. I tried my hardest to scoot away from him but it was hard because my arms and legs had been tied up. Instead, i just turned my face. I hated him. All we had been through and his bitch ass does this. Thats just how the game went.

He moved the hair out of my face. "Dont fucking touch me" I said. You could hear the rage in my voice. "You know i used to really love you girl I would do anything for you" Tre turned away from me. He couldnt even look me in the face. The game had corrupted his mind.
"Then why wont you let me go, what do you want from me"? "Man you know its not that easy Ana'shay. I cant just let you walk you know to much now, you betrayed all that you stood for".
I cringed at his words.
" You know im not going to tell anyone I just want out I cant live this life no more Tre, I cant do It. Dont you want more in life then just guns and money. Dont you want your family to do better than this, don't you want to be able to live without watching your own moves". Tre let out a hurt chuckle. I knew he didnt want to do it , but i also knew he had to thats just how the game was. This shit hurt.
Tre leaned against the wall and lit a ciggeret. I saw a tear creep down his face, but he quickly wiped it. There was no way out.

I knew i was going to die in this room tonight. I looked out the window as i laid on the bed, instantly i began thinking about my son and how he would be looking for his mama. How he would cry his self to sleep, and how he would think i abandoned
him.I knew the feeling and I would never want JayQuan going through that. I have failed myself. My heart ached but i could show no emotion. I cried my last cry a long time ago. Suddenly i fell deeper in my thoughts and i started reflecting on my life. I always said i would be the one to make it out the ghetto, you know? Instantly my  body grew numb, i heard nothing and suddenly I flashed back to the day my life changed forever.

Okay so this is my very first time writing a book on here . Let me know how u feel about it and i hope you like it so far. Comment your thoughts!!!!😘😘

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