No Way Out

The New Me

*****Two weeks later

It was a Saturday morning and the house was quite. Saturdays were never quite in this house. My moms would always be up spotting and cleaning the house while she made homemade waffles and sang to the music she played. Sadly all that was over now.

I slowly walked down the stairs being careful not to break the silence. Just as i approached the end of the steps i heard weeping. I walked closer to the noise. It was Row she was sitting on the floor crying. I walked in and set beside her. At first I didn't know what to say but then I just let it flow the best I could. "Look i know it hurts I know yall wasn't on good terms but trust me she loved you Row she still loves you, she will always love you, and you gotta continue to push forward no matter what and dont ever give up. She laid on my chest and cried, i cried too. After about and hour she dozed off and i picked her up and laid her on the bed. The pain was real and everyone felt it even our community. I hadn't been to school since the accident and my girls been blowing my phone up none stop. I just ignore them because they just gone have me more fucked up. I walked in the living room to see my dad's bags packed. I guess he's going back on the road. I know this is hurting him alot more than us and his only solutation is work, it always is.
I stood there staring off in space,and I imagined my dad meeting my mama for the first time and how they must have been so in love. I could only begin to imagine everything they ever been through. But  i quickly snapped out of it when i heard my dad coming from the hallway. "Alright i'll be there boss, Im walking out the door as we speak. Okay , yes, okay bye". My dad looked kinda shocked to see me. "Well well well look who decided to breath fresh air" he giggled trying ease the mention &  hide the pain in his heart. I ran and gave him a tight hug. "Ill try to make it back for your mamas funeral in two weeks okay Lolo" he assured me. Deep down i knew he really wanted to go but he always leaves for about 3 to 4 weeks and there wouldn't be anyway he could  make it back in time because he drives across states. I shook my head and stood in the doorway as he loaded his truck. The air was a thick gray and it felt like the coldest day ever. I fought my tears back as i watched him pull off. My dad was my hero.

Later that day when i arrived at work my co- workers were looking at me funny. I had called in sick and missed at least four days. One of my friends quickly approached me and pulled me in the bathroom.
"Girl where the hell you been, why u haven't been hitting me back, you good"? I could see the concern in Nancy's eyes. Nancy was someone i met back in middle school she was short and skinny with nice chocolate skin, she could make anyone laugh and had a smile that could blind you.
"Yeah girl you know it's just hard, all this shit just happened so fast and im just trying to cope" i said unable to stare her in her eyes. "Why you lying man, your not okay, im here for you so answer my calls okay i know you hurt shit I am too" she said as she hugged me. I put my head on her shoulder and there was a slight paulse when suddenly everything got serious again.
"No but for real bitch word around the office is you bout to get laid off". " No what the fuck i can't i gotta help pay for my mama's funeral, and bills... shit where's Stacy i need to talk to her" I immediately said. I walked out the bathroom searching for my boss.
"Just the person I wanted to see " a voice from behind me said. My heart raced as i realized it was Stacy. "My office now" she demanded. I followed her to a little room in the corner of the building. "Stacy i can explain"...." I..I just been.." before i could continue I was cut off. "No need to explain miss Smith I am putting you on suspension with half pay, I will be hiring someone for seasonal so you can have some time to get your head on straight". Without aurguing I nodded and asked how long.
"About two months" she spit. I agreed and walked to my car without telling anyone bye. Shortly after get to my impala I heard footsteps shuffling towards me...
"Hold on man what the fuck happened where u going" I heard Nancy's voice roar from behind me. "None really ill be back in two months i guess"I shot back. "Man thats bullshit you want me to whoop that hoe". "Hahahahhahah !! Nancy you a foo , naw but its fine"I laughed. We gave each other a long hug and went our separate ways.