Everlasting Love

Three

-Jessica POV-

"Wake up mess up" Maggie yells at me like every other morning she has to wake me up. "I have to take you to school because you fucking missed the bus," she sneers at me, but i dont even remember my alarm going off. My phone says that i hit the snooze button so i must have without realizing it. "Okay -um give me five minutes," i tell her getting out of james' bed.

"Dont be late....or else," and thats how she threatens me which i dont not want the or else option ever again. I go to my dresser and pick out a blue hoodie, one size to big, and dark blue denim jeans and brush my hair. i leave the bathroom to throw my back pack over my shoulder and head out.

Maggie is already waiting in her car for me. As i reach for the door handle she snaps at me to sit in the back. Not wanting to piss her off i do. "Okay remember im dropping you off down the block so people dont see us together." she has to tell me this every time just so that people dont know shes related to the school freak. Because thats what i am. Im an outcast. People couldnt careless if i was in their lives or not. I dont even know whats keeping me here anymore.

The passenger door opens and i see my sisters friend gets in and throws her bag to the floor. When she notices me behind her she scoots her seat back as far as it will go without literally swishing my legs off. They talk and gossip, which i couldnt care less about. I think back to why im not dead from that night. why im not dead now from since that night. Ive been prepared. but then why dont i. No one cares.

"Get out!" Maggie yells at me, probably because there are senior walkers going by and doesnt want to be caught. So i get out and start walking the rest of the way to school.

My phone vibrates for the seventh time since i got out of the car, so i pull it out to see more hate mail on instagram, facebook, and unknown numbers. I dont want to bother with it since im almost at school. Since theres not much more to do on my phone i put it back in my pocket. I wasnt always hated by everyone it all started two years ago when the wreck happened. It started getting bad with my home life. My mom getting drunk and then beating me for it all, and she convinced my brother that it was my fault. He believed her, probably because hes always stoned. I sometimes think my sister doesnt fully hate me because shes not that mean to me. That maybe, just maybe shes mean just so shes not bullied. But then she yells at me or pushes me and shatters all my hope. Since it was bad at home i started acting different at school. My 'friends' noticed. When i pushed them all away they told everyone all my secrets just like sixth graders would. once everyone knew all about me, especially that i cut and it was my fault for the wreck, everything changed. i was bullied by my mom and siblings, and at school. Two years later i still get bullied but only by one mean group. everyone else just stays away from me on instinct.

The sound of chatter is loud and more distinct now so i look up to find myself at the school gates. My feet start up again walking and i glance to the left where some boys always sit. Not knowing why i looked there i keep scanning them until i find him. I realize that the reason i looked over there is because i know hes always there. John. I also now understand why im not dead. Because hes here. As quickly as i found him i look back down slightly -no- realy sad that hes hanging out and joking with all this friends and he doesnt seem to notice i ever exist. But why would he? Their not even friends. I find myself at my usual spot behind the school.

-John POV-

Im laughing at my friend, Sean, when i see out of the corner of my eye someone stops at the front gate. Its Jessica. Ending up staring at her i look away quickly back to my friends, but my attention is no longer with them. It belongs to the school wide 'outcast' at that moment. She looks over here and scans all of my friends. Im guessing she was looking for me, because when they fell on me, her eyes grew big and instantly dropped. she keeps her head down as she walks, an turns the corner of the school. I want to get up, run behind the school, and comfort that girl everyone sees sad. But you cant youll get judged. But she needs a friend. So you want to get bullied. My friends would be there for me. Just as im about to leave to sit with her, Chad puts his hand on my shoulder asking me something.

"Well Johnnyboy? Would you?" he smirks. I know theres not a very good out come out of this.

"Would i what?" i say confused since i wasnt paying attention.

"Would you eat a cat?" the question is stupid yet he says it like its negotiating a world war III. Sean looks like hes having a cow trying not to laugh.

"What the heck?!?! NO!!" yelling at what he just asked me.

"What about a pussy cat," Chad says not even completely finishing his sentence before laughing his ass off, just like all my other friends. i just sit there a small, forced smile on my lips since im still thinking about the girl hiding behind the school. Syanding up to finally go talk to her the first period bell rings. I sigh, walking to the school

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hey i hope you liked it!!! its longer than the first two but still not that long so im gonna try to do longer ones the more i write. next chapter im gonna start with johns pov OOOOOOOOOOO different. is john gonna rlly talk to her?!?!?!?!?!?1?!? idfk bai babe <3 With Love- Lillianna