Neptune~ (Jeon Jungkook)

Dream: Forever

Forever we are young
Under the flower petals raining down
I run, so lost in this maze

Forever we are young
Even when I fall and hurt myself
I keep running
Towards my dream.

Jungkook POV

It all went black.

It felt like drowning. It felt worse.

It felt like living.

Where are you?

"Save me, Jungkook!"

Her voice seemed familiar and I looked up to see her figure in front of me. It was a shadow. Nothing more than fog, clouding my mind and my chest, making my vision blurry. I felt my breathing getting slower. I felt my mind going numb. Why did I remember her touch? Why did i remember her scent?

Why can't I see her face?

She reached out her hand. It was only inches away, I could almost touch it but the more I tried, the bigger the distance got. I looked for her eyes. Where are her eyes? Why am I sinking?

I looked down to see nothing but fog. No water, no earth, no color, just plain up air, curling around my ankles, bringing me down steadily but surely. Tugging on my sleeves, my hand fell.

It was so cold.

"Save me, Jungkook?" Her question was no more than a whisper in the dark. I wanted to. I wanted to save her. I couldn't breathe.

I wanted her to be the last thing on my mind.

"Be strong", the voice faded into the black clouds above me. It felt like drowning, even if I was floating. My world was still underwater.

What if I'm not strong?

"Wake up", I could barely understand her, the words forming in her mouth sounded like a language I didn't know. She thought, it felt better when I wake up. Is it true?

What if I don't want to wake up?

"I understand." She doesn't. No one does. I don't understand it. It felt like a dream, a nightmare. And you want to wake up, thinking it would be better. But dreaming is better. Reality hurts.

It kills you.

She wouldn't understand, even if I'd explain. It takes a lot to understand. Maybe a life time.

"Let me help you."

Why don't you understand? I want you to understand.

You can't help me. Everyone I cared about left me. Everyone I loved forgot about me. I watched them forget. I watched them die.

I killed them. It was my fault all along.

Why don't you see it? Why don't you blame me? It is my fault. Everything's my fault. It is my fault because I couldn't save them.

Sarah, where are you?

I need you.

I miss you.

I love you.

I'm sorry.

Why is she still here? Can't she see that I'm fucked up?

Can't she see that I'm broken?

You can't fix me.

"Don't leave me. Stay with me." Her voice was stuck in my head, clear as day. Like I've known her for a life time.

I hope that's not the only option.

I didn't know how she could hear me. But she was listening to me all along. I floated endlessly. Where is solid ground?

"Why?"

Because I would have to love you. I would have to dedicate my whole life to you.

"Why? Are you afraid? What are you afraid of?"

She was here. She didn't leave. She was always a step behind me, ready to catch me, if I'd fall. Why didn't I notice? She was here all along...

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"I'm afraid of falling for you."

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