"... I wanna love you but I don't know how."
Jungkook is a troubled teen, who lost his love to live when his sister died years ago. You, on the other hand, were a rather careless teen, clumsy and extremely awkward at times.
But when something happe...
I was lying on my bed, not being able to pay any attention to what Ella had just told me about her date with Jimin. No thoughts were in my head and I just kept blankly staring at the ceiling. I haven't smiled for a whole day and my face felt kinda stiff. Not that I cared though. I didn't care about anything anymore. Except about him...
I slapped myself in the face to keep my thoughts from trailing to Jungkook and the scenario from yesterday. Why the fuck couldn't I stop thinking about him? Everytime I tried to restrain myself from thinking about anything, he kept creeping into my head.
I noticed sudden silence and Ella was staring at me in shock and annoyance. I mouthed a 'what', not wanting to talk and she narrowed her eyebrows.
"You just slapped yourself."
"I did?" I was kinda confused, thinking about what I did few seconds ago and Ella sighed in annoyance again. She groaned and lazily slumped down on my bed that smelled kinda funny, because my Mom has poured dish water over it again. Every. Fricking. Morning.
My thoughts were trailing off again, as she started talking.
"What's wrong with you anyways? I've just told you about my super-duper-awesomazing date with Jimin and you haven't commented anything stupid nor facepalmed yourself or hit me with a cushion. And you always say stupid things. Actually you ramble loads. It's a tad bit annoying. And you haven't said anything today at all, except 'My bed stinks'. So, what's up?"
I forced a smile on my face and tried to do aegyo. Her face scrunched up in disgust.
"Don't you ever do that again. Fucking horrible! Never seen worse aegyo in my life. And don't you dare avoiding my question!"
My smile fell as quickly as her frown and I sighed in desperation.
"I don't know. I'm just having an off day, I guess." She shook her head in disbelief.
"You know, you could have just said you didn't wanna talk about it, but you didn't have to fucking lie." I didn't get, why she was pissed all of a sudden but she quickly stood up and stomped towards my room door, not without stepping on my backpack.
"Well, what's up your ass?" Pissed at her sudden attitude, I blocked the door and faced her. Her face was angry but I caught a sad glimpse in her hazel eyes.
"I said, Jimin kissed me. And you know, that I haven't been kissed before. So I thought you would at least show a little bit of attention. Fuck you, I always listen to you. And whatever or whoever is fucking with your mind, I suggest you quickly sort that one out, because I'm not talking to you again, until you actually listen to me."
She was now crying and stormed down the stairs. I didn't bother to hold her up and explain, because I was fucking exhausted. I groaned and slumped back onto my bed, hating myself excessively.
What is wrong with me?
I couldn't stand the cruel silence in my room, that was starting to fill up with memories again, so I quickly went to the closet and took out a hoodie because the leaves were already falling off the trees, meaning that winter was coming. And I didn't want to catch a cold anymore, considering where it brought me last time.
Without telling mom, I sneaked out of the house. She wouldn't have allowed me to go out anyways, because she was overprotective and it was starting to become dark. I put my cap on my head and thought about today in school. I didn't dare to look at him, but I knew he was staring at me, because Hana was death-glaring me during the whole first period. I sighed and my breath formed clouds.
Why didn't I notice yesterday that it was starting to get cold? It seemed so warm all the time until he stopped talking to me. Well, we never really talked...
I wish I could've talked to him. Helping him figure out his mind. Helping him in general. He always looked like he could use some help, looked always sad and depressed, looked angry and in pain. I wish I knew what was going on in his mind.
I sighed again and looked around. The streets were getting busier, it was rush-hour in Seoul right now. A small smile formed on my lips as I watched the cars passing by. I loved this time of a day. The people coming home, making the streets shine in beautiful colors. I've always imagined them being all happy about seeing their families again after a long, exhausting day at work.
My smile fell as soon as my thoughts were circling around Jungkook again. Why did his parents not know about him being sad? Did he even have parents anymore? I started to become sad at the thought of him being all alone... Why did I care so much about him?!
I wanted to cross the street. The light was green, so I quickly looked from side to side to see if it was safe to cross the street. Safety always first, as mom always said. I didn't notice the car that was blaring at me. As I looked up, the only thing I saw was bright lights shining in my face, before I felt two strong arms hugging me and dragging me to the side. I dug my fingers in the hoodie. It was over in a matter of seconds. The person who saved me was breathing excessively and I could feel my own breath hitching as I still clung onto my saviour. His breath hit my cheek and his arms were still around me, holding me tightly. It felt warm in an instant and the scent of that person reminded me so much of... Jungkook?
I slowly looked up only to be glared at by angry deep brown eyes.
Why did he save me again?
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A/N: Let's end this on a dramatic note again xD I'm on my period now so the next chapter will probably contain a lot of self loathing... Sorry for another crappy filler chapter, kinda have writer's block... -.-'
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That's what he looks like when he saved her in my opinion xD (fluffing hot if you ask me..)
