♡ The Sky Looks Beautiful ♡

#Now#

"Now"
Now,that you're mine,can you call me 'yours'?Now ,that you're the one for me can you call me 'you're the one for me' too?Now,that you're not mine can you still call me 'yours'?Now,that you're not the one for me can you still call me 'you're the one for me' again?Now,that it all had passed and I'm still sitting on this place,thinking on "what are you doing?Are you fine?Have you moved on?Do you still remember me?Have you eaten well?Did you have a new girlfriend?","cuz I'm not doing well,I'm not fine,i havent moved on,and yes i still remember you,I havent eaten well since then,im still single"...
I looked out the window and saw the Autumn Leaves falling down from that big tree.I saw us playing in that big pile of leaves and it's just us..
I guess i havent moved on,huh?
I heard that you're in the hospital few days ago..
I thought of meeting you but I heard the most depressing story and they said "You're dead" and I don't believe them,cuz you're still alive,you're just too shy to show your face.The day after they tell me that it was the funeral day.Did you knew I was too scared to see you in that box?I was so scared that I swear I'd even kill myself,my mom begged me to come along and so I came.. I was in the car spacing out on 'If I had the chance to say my final goodbye's, it might won't be too painful',I tried not to regret too much cuz I know I would cry.
We arrived at the funeral your Mom was crying on your father's shoulder sobbing hard.She saw me and quickly went to me,she slapped my face..and I know I deserve all of this.. Cause if I didn't start the fight you won't be like this.. "Because of you my son is in that box!Because of you he is not alive anymore!Why are you even her?!Are you happy that he is now in that box?!" She ranted out and I could only mutter out a few sorry's.
People we're leaving at that time and my mom was going home.I asked her to go in first,so I can have a deep alone conversation with you. "____,I'm sorry because of me all of this happens,and don't be guilty cuz I deserve that slap..I'm so sorry that I get mad at you,I was so stressed out that idek what to do,"
"You're just trying to calm me out and with that attitude I have"