Xavier's Diseases.

Chapter 8 - Where would I be without you? (Conner's POV.)

So before you read my part of this story, you need to know something. There are three sides of a story. Two lies and one truth. Any story ever told by somebody is an opinionated recollection. People take stories and shape them into something that makes them seem like the better person. So how do people figure out who to believe if they are both lies? Well, you figure out which lie you like better. You figure out which person you like better. Who would you miss more if you lost them? Nobody is ever going to know the truth about everything. Because to everybody there are different varieties of the truth.
Why did I say that? Alix has a truth. I have a truth. We have our reasons. I didn't want to have sex with her because I am a horny teenage boy. I wanted to see if I even liked it. I have to be honest with you. Dating Alix was a waste of my time. I didn't like her. She's a great friend. But, she wasn't what I was looking for.  But that was the problem. I didn't know what I was looking for. I had no clue. I tried a few girls on for size and I was never interested. I never knew why. Maybe it was because they were always bitching about something. I really just wanted to see if I was attracted to them sexually. So since Alix wouldn't do that for me, I cheated. She knows I did. And she now knows why. I think she forgave me. But you'd never know. She isn't really open about her feelings or her life. Or anything really. She just keeps everything all bottled up and pretends it doesn't bother her. I guess I couldn't really blame her.  I tried the whole telling people thing once. It didn't work very well. 

Anyway we aren't here to talk about that, are we? We are here to explain to you what happened to us after Xavier. So, here I am. It's been over a year, take or give a few days or months, and I am discovering new things each day. Like, I have very few friends anymore. Mainly because I am very very very very queer. Very queer. Like so queer I'm queer. That makes no sense, I know. Anywayss...

    Oh, you didn't know that? Oops.. I was sure that Alix would have told you.. I guess I am a little more blunt than others. 

My life after Xavier sucked. I hated it. I don't ever want to go through it again. 

But in my next entry I will tell you how his accident made me realize that I was gay.