Messages From Him - Ziall

13.

Zayn: so i came here to ur house after school to see if your mom was telling the truth.

Zayn: she was.

Zayn: Your family is here. ur dad, greg & denise came over.

Zayn: She didn't expect me to show up of course.

Zayn: This has got to be worst day of my life.

Zayn: i got here and she told me the whole story.

Zayn: From the moment you woke up till you leaving.

Zayn: She told me you woke up just like every other morning. You seemed fine.

Zayn: you ate breakfast with her at the kitchen table other than eating in your room. She was grateful for that.

Zayn: she also told me u guys had plans on going out tonight for dinner celebrating ur big 18th.

Zayn: you always told me you couldn't wait to get to that age a bunch of times. You couldn't wait to become an adult.

Zayn: you both watched tv together. You guys talked about nonsense for a while which she still thinks that was nice.

Zayn: she told me everything was going well until you got up saying you had to use the bathroom.

Zayn: she noticed you took longer than usual.

Zayn: she would knock on the door constantly, but you wouldn't answer.

Zayn: she tried opening it, but it was locked. Even tho ur mom is small she busted through that door.

Zayn: when she opened the door she saw....

Zayn: you on the floor...

Zayn: in a pool of blood. There was a razor next you. Your arms were cut up and down deep.

Zayn: I'm in ur bathroom rn and i can still see little red stains scaterred from the sink to the floor.

Zayn: she called the ambulance right away, but you were dead when they arrived. Maura knew because she would try to find ur pulse after calling, but you didn't have one.

Zayn: it feels weird without you here. It feels incomplete. You always made people happy even when u weren't. I know u always called me ur hero, but in all honesty you were mine and ur mom's hero.

Zayn: i hope u don't mind, I'm ur in room rn. It's just like how i saw it a year and a half ago.

Zayn: Niall I'm really sorry this happened. You should still be alive. I should be dead.

Zayn: I'm crying. No, I'm not tearing up. I'm full on crying. You were the only person i would cry over. You were the only person that i thought about 24/7.

Zayn: you were the only person that i fell in love with.

Zayn: the girls that i dated didn't mean shit to me. During those relationships i would only think of us. How we could have been. Just you and me.

Zayn: I'm so sorry for leaving you alone when you needed me. I was a fucking asshole. And how i treated you when u tried to reach out to me...i could never forgive myself for that.

Zayn: Niall...i know ur up in heaven rn. Please forgive me. I have loved you since we were kids. Before we both knew what love was. You were my first crush also. I wish i can change everything that happened, so you could be here with me.

Zayn: I am a fucking idiot for hurting you.

Zayn: you only desereved the greatest of the great, but of course i ruined it.

Zayn: i'll never forget you niall. You were to amazing to forget.

Zayn: i see your phone here on the table next to your bed. I'm going to keep messaging you till i feel like i should stop.

Zayn: I love you. Always and forever.

Delivered 4:43 pm

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This story has a few more chapters left.

Yes niall committed suicide. Sorry if i confused you on the last chapter :(

In this story, baby Theo has not been born yet.

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