ESCAPE

Her

     I look at the different choices available to me through the glass case 1 foot away. 3 choices. All gray pendants. All gold or silver bands. I finally decide I want my bond module to be a ring. I don't really like bracelets and A necklace might get stuck in my hair. The woman behind the desk asks me to fill out a form and turn it into the box. She tells me my module will be in by tonight. So as another twelve reaches the front of the long line, I sit down and fill out the application. I set it into the box as the same time as another girl. She must be a sixteen because she has a form too.
   She has beautiful dark red hair and stunning gray eyes. Her name tag reads "Alexis". She is wearing a flannel top and a beanie to accompany her combat boots and ripped jeans. I like her edgy sense of style. I'm stare at her without even noticing what I'm doing, her voice breaks through my thoughts. "I'm sorry" ,she pauses for a moment and tilts her head. I notice she is trying to read my name tag.
"E-Evie. M-My name is Evie. And I'm s-sorry Alexis it's my fault." I stutter in embarrassment.
"Alex. You can call me Alex." She puts out her hand to shake mine. I hold it a little longer than I probably should have because i feel her tug away.
"I'm sorry but I must be going. Dinner is soon. And Oak Drive is quite a ways." I tell her just ready to get out of this retched situation. I am in a white oversized baseball tee, short jean shorts and and my black converse. My tangled bonde streaked brown hair is everywhere and I wish I could just dive into a hole.
"Oak Drive? That's where I live! Let me walk you." she offers. I kindly accept now knowing I can't get out of this. I've always known I was different but I never let a girl make me act this way. If the society let me change one thing, it would be that the soul mates weren't only boys with girls.
In the past, very long ago, 2000s maybe, they had a word for this. A lesbian. A girl who likes girls. If I hadn't done my research I would have never known that. They don't teach it to us in schools. It's not something the government wants us to know since all of the soul mates are heterosexual couples. (I learned that word from the ancient things I found in the library too.) The government did away with all queer couples for breeding purposes. They want the clan to try to repopulate the earth.
   I wish I wasn't this way. It would make life so much easier. I just want to fit in. But I guess I'll just have to pretend. Although I am attracted to girls, I've never had one make me be this awkward. I hope it's just a one time thing.