The Height of a Heart ~Poems~

I Took The Pain

I felt the pain

In my mothers eyes

For the mistake I made

May end my life

I was told to play

When I was young

To get out of dads face

When the night was done

But on a Sunday bright and early

I woke up still with mommy's humming

We went to church all the same

Sang to the lord as any day

But as I sat down, I looked around

Some people seemed angry some how

And as the priest walked up on stage

Which was weird to see him that day

We listened well to the speaker at hand

And learned about something called abortion

That I didn't know we had

Guess I was dumb

Cause at age ten 

He spoke to me

About the life for women like me

How god gave us pain for life

Since we took a little bite 

Of an apple from a snake

Who showed eve that very day

He told us that "life is there, when you get pregnant you hear"?

And mothers clapped around the room

Like fathers who clapped to

Kids all looked around as did I

And questioned why oh why

But the day went on and we left church that day

For my mother to say

"You were gods choice you know"?

I smiled and said "I know"

But when we got home dad was mad

We forgot to get him ham

The shopping we forgot to do

So mommy knew

She grabbed me fast and raced upstairs

Threw me in the room with dad downstairs

Hearing a shout ring out 

We hid in the corner as stomps came out

"Stop daddy" I cried having mommy by my side

"Stop the tears" My mother said

"For lord has told us our sin,

"We gave to much to the gift he gave

But not to him above,

So our sins we must pay"

My cry's rang out as dad broke out

Mommy was pulled out and beat loud

But there was nothing I could do

Being ten was to be a fool

For years went by and father left

So I looked for love in different men

Mother wouldn't come back till late

Her breath the smell of decay

And church was no more

Just a memory, nothing more

I guess I understood

At six-teen life wasn't good

I gave my fruit away to other men

Making me cry in the end

So before I knew

The two lines showed

My fate was bright without me known

Cause I remember the last day of church

But I couldn't have this child now

To much work

Mother late

And father gone

This couldn't be the right date

No way there's another way

I won't give the child away

So I looked to internet and said

'How to kill this baby dead'

I found the truth on that day

I wouldn't have to suffer 9 months this way

To rid the child inside of me

Was to get an abortion quietly

Not tell mother about my plan

Because she would lose her hand

So one day I left 

Headed to a place

Through buses and cars

I  saw the place

The place I would lose this baby

The nurses were very kind

And welcomed me with open arms

I didn't feel pain at all

Just a pill was all

Though the days after not that well

My body had a little spill

But I'll save you all from what's inside

It was my heart that died

I knew my heart told me so

"The lord told me to let go"

Since this child was to be in pain

Could I not just save it from it today?

Who knows if it would grow

Or die to young like so

I guess that's all I know

Cause now I take it slow

I made my way through school

And became a doctor that's my rule

To have children when the time was right

So I'm sorry for my younger years

But I feel alright

Cause the child will be re-born tonight

Sent to another by the lord

Will become a baby once again

And cry with smiles from mothers touch

Without the fear of growing up

In pain which I knew

Would be it's only clue

To the darkness that this world has

And the beauty that hides in time

Thank for your time tonight

May the choice be yours, all right?

This is my pro-choice opinion. If you don't like I'm sorry. But it is a woman's body. If she wishes to not see the child in to this world, it is her choice.

Thank you.