Is It Wrong To Fall In Love With A Ghost?

Lavender Kiss

-=Chapter 12=- -=Lavender Kiss=-

Nishimura-san and I both walked into my hospital room still holding each other hands. I sat down on my bed exhaustedly, my legs felt weak. Those eyes from that girl... Yamashita-san... My hands trembled from that thought, damn it! Why am I such a weakling!? I can't even stand the color red now...!
"Himura-kun... Are you okay?" Nishimura-san questioned with a worried tone. She held my hand tight.
I looked at her transparent hand, I held her hand tight as well. I gazed at Nishimura-san's friendly lavender eyes and gave her a smile.
"I'm fine. As long you're with me, nothing else matters." I muttered with a bright tone.
Nishimura-san's transparent pale cheeks glow bright red, which is really noticeable. I realized what I just said and started freaking out quietly. Crap! I said that out loud!
"I-I mean...! I'm happy that you're here with me, and not all alone. I don't want you to turn into an evil spirit who feeds on dark emotions-" Crap! I just made things worst!
"Oh... O-Okay..." Nishimura-san sounded depressed as she looks away.
"That's... Not what I meant... I'm glad that you're safe, and sitting here right next to me. And I mean it." I announced with confidence.
Nishimura-san blushed brightly and looked away. She peeked at me and gave me a warm smile. As we spend time with each other, I remembered that man who tried to kill me with an evil grin. That man... He killed my father... And killed Nishimura-san, just because I talked to her in public. "Nishimura-san... I'm... I'm sorry that I broke our promise. I just needed to know the guy who killed you. I can't stand you being sad anymore." I pouted.
Nishimura-san smiled and spoke:
"I know. But I didn't want you to get hurt just because of me."
"But you died because of me." I exclaimed.
Nishimura-san looked at me, with her eyes widened.
"Hey, come on! Stop blaming yourself that I pass away. It was my fault, I wasn't looking around my surroundings-"
"The guy killed you because he wanted to kill me!" I shouted.
"W-What...? This can't be true."
"That man... He killed my father. And now, he wants to kill me because I am the son of my father, and had witnessed my father's death." I placed my left hand on my head, remembering that day.
"No way... I had thought your father was on a trip." Nishimura-san looked like she was about to cry, thinking about my experience.
"Well I guess you can say he's on a trip, a trip that he will never come back to the world of the living." I looked up at the ceiling, thinking about my father in the afterlife.
"I'm sorry..." Nishimura-san started to cry. Tears ran down her transparent face.
I smiled and hugged her. I rubbed her head as she cries more on my shoulder.
"Hey, stop crying, I'm the one who want to cry. I'm the one who lost his father."
I continued hugging her as shy cries.
My heart pounds hard, why am I feeling this way? What is this feeling called?
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-=Lizzie=-
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Time passed, I has stop crying, and HImura-kun stopped hugging me. When he hugged me, I felt warm, and safe around his arms. When he hugged me, I just couldn't stop crying, I cried a lot more. My heart just wanted to escape from my soul, even though I'm a ghost.
"Himura-kun? Thank you." I said. I waited for Himura-kun's response but he didn't say anything. "Himura-"
Before I knew it, he started resting on my shoulder. Is he asleep? My heart pounded hard, this is embarrassing! I turned my head to the left where Himura-kun is resting at, I turned too much that our faces were so close to each other. I can feel Himura-kun breathing, it's light and gentle, just like a child. I looked at Himura-kun's lips. Barely open, so he is able to breath. My heart races, what's wrong with me? Why am I so tempted to kiss him right now? I continued looking at his lips, and slowly tried to kiss him. Our lips got very close to touch each other, so close that I can't bare it. Himura-kun took a deep breath and moved his head down, making me kiss his forehead. My face turned bright red that I tried so hard not to scream. I looked at our hand, were both still holding hand. I can't believe what he said, he said he's never gonna let go of my hand. I smiled and closed my eyes. Too bad I can't sleep, I need to remember my last regrets and do them to be able to rest in peace. I layed down Himura-kun so he can sleep. Poor guy, he must be tired from running all over the place just to look for me.
"I'm sorry Himura-kun. I didn't mean to make you tired like that. Thank you for being close to me, I'm glad that you're with me, even though I'm a roaming spirit." I softly spoke. I let go of Himura-kun's hand, and backed away.
"No... Don't leave me..." Himura-kun said in his sleep.
What? I looked at Himura-kun, tears ran down his face. It looks like he's having a bad dream.
"Please... Don't leave me... Not you too..." He said.
I smiled.
"I'm not gonna leave you. I promise. I will never leave you, Kazuki." I whispered. I looked out the window, gazing at the sad moon. I'm glad that I met Himura-kun, even though he was rude to me at first. I understand why he did that though, he didn't want me to talk to him because of my reputation. I don't care about that. I'm just happy he guided me to something I never felt before. That day, when I first met Himura-kun, he helped me because I had forgot my textbook. I remembered that I wanted to give Himura-kun something in return. Wait a minute, what did I bought for him again? What was it? It's all hazy for me. My head started to hurt from forcing myself of what I bought for Himura-kun. I guess, I have to wait for a while until I can remember of what it was. I smiled as I looked back at Himura-kun. At least I can spend more time with you, and not alone.

By: Melanie Moreno