My Garden of Darkness (Bruno Mars)

The Beginning

Rose POV

I self harmed again...

I had been 2 months clean, and I just ruined it. I couldn't take it any longer. My dad has been hitting me and throwing me around for the past year, he's still blaming my mothers death on me. I tried helping her in the wreck but she threw me out the car trying to protect me from the broken glass, the car burned into flames with my mother still inside right after... I couldn't believe it my mom was gone right before my eyes. Me helpless, no idea on what to do. I could still here her screams and her saying "I love you" with her last breath.

There I was once again in front of the bathroom mirror, blade in hand. I looked down at the blood dripping from my wrists, how could I be so stupid.

"Rose, come out of the stupid restroom right now!!' Dad said
I stayed in shock not knowing what to do, he knew I self harmed but he thought I had stopped.
I quickly cleaned off the blood but it kept coming back, my father yelling louder and louder for me to open the door.
I found my gloves, which go all the way to my elbow , I put them on and walked out.
My dad standing by the door, he immediately grabbed my hair and dragged me to the kitchen. Me yelling for him to let me go, crying wishing I hadn't opened the door.
"You were supposed to have cooked dinner 20 fucking minutes ago!"
Me, with tears in my eyes apologized and went to the fridge looking for something to cook.
The fridge was nearly empty, but I doubt my alcoholic no-job father will buy any food soon, since the only thing he spends the few money I bring to the house from the shop, he spends on cheap beer and cigarettes.

I hate how I'm so obedient, I know I'm his daughter and that's what daughters are supposed to do, but I'm pretty sure a father doesn't act like this. He made me quit college so I could start working and becoming his slave. I was 19 when the accident happened, I'm turning 20 in two weeks, my father had promised me when my mom died (before he knew my mom saved me) that he and I would go on a cruise to relax from the terrible accident, I doubt were still going but nothing hurts to ask...

"Um... Dad?" I asked nervously still cooking the left over fried chicken from my fathers dinner two days ago.

"What do you want?" He responded arrogantly

"Ummm, remember that the day of the acci-"
He quickly cut me off by standing up from the couch he was in and came to me and slapped me across the face.

"WHAT DID I FUCKING TELL YOU ABOUT TALKING ABOUT THAT DAY?!!!" He yelled at me anger streaming in his eyes.

" I-I'm s-sorry, I was just..." He cut me off again with another slap this time harder .
I got extremely angry and...
"Fuck you!!" I yelled as I ran out the front door no idea of where I was going . Also I left the chicken in the microwave... But who cares about the stupid chicken. I could steal here my dad yelling at me I kept walking knowing he's not going to chase me , especially since me leaving would be the best thing to ever happen to him, at least that's what he says .

Still no idea to where I am going, I kept walking. My house is 2 blocks away from the park so I guess I'll go and sit for a while.

I walked to the nearest bench , and sat down. I started to think about how things were when my mom was here, we were all so happy , my dad always smiling . Images of the day me and my dad danced the father-daughter dance in my sweet 16 flashed before my eyes as well with pictures of me and him at graduation. We had been so close. Me, him, and mom. How could he change so much in such little time.

I started crying with my hands in my knees. Lame I know, but what else can I do. I doubt my dad will change.

"Rose?"

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Hey guys!
As you can see this is the first chapter of this story, obviously

I am in no way trying to offend and/or trigger anyone who self harms. This is just a story, and to those who do self harm...please stop its not helping yourself or anyone seeing you suffer like that.

Please vote/comment for me to continue this story if you like it thank you!

P.S
Please ignore all the grammatical errors, I'm really not that good of a writer :\

-love, ash <3