Abundance (Last Seen Sequel) || August Alsina

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Aries Parker.

Dear Diary
I'm constantly saying goodbye to the shadow of your existence. Your face, Your Intentions—Never revealed—or maybe I never listened. Maybe I was too inlove with your mask and your intentions I wished you had to realise I was the only one in my fantasy, Now I'll never trust you  or be surprised because I will always say goodbye. . unless you tell me the time and date of your return but for now all I have is a memory .

I closed my notepad shut as I placed the pen beside it, Taking a huge breath in I pinched the bridge of my nose.

"Hey" A voice caught me off guard I almost jumped from my seat, That's when reality hit that I was still at this fuckin' shit hole.

I hate my job, goshhh Lord knows how much I really hate it. 5 years of working here has been nothing but hell, My Gay boss can be so Dramatic sometimes I feel like I could stangle the life out of him.

I looked up to keyana smiling down at me with her gorgeous smile. I met Keyana 3 Years ago when she started working in this shit hole, She's cool people and very sweet. I hate the fact that she feels sorry for me over everything, I mean I don't need anyone's sympathy. Well I've grown close to her that I felt like she's the only person I could at least talk to about anything because she's quite a good listener however, she can be the real judge Judy sometimes. Keyana Is a year older than me and is Engaged to be married in two months time. She inspires me alot because She and Marvin— Her Boyfriend/ Fiance met in highschool just like August and I and its really lovely to see them together being all lovey dovey as if they just knew each other.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Hey" It finally clicked to me that she had just greeted me.

"Why do you always sit alone and zone out like that ?" She asked.

I shrugged as I took my notepad and put it in my handbag that I got on my birthday from my boss, He quite has taste on fashion I might say.

"I have a lot on my mind" I said lowly, She  sighed as she sat in front of me trying to make contact with me.

"Your Thinking of him aren't you?" She asked with worry lingering in her voice. I refused eye contact while faking a smile.

"Honestly key, It's Friday and I'm really tired" I said getting up and taking my bag.

"What does that have to do with what I asked you?" She asked.

"And where the hell you going? Who said I'm done talking with you?" She added with her thick voice, I rolled my eyes as I fell back to my seat again putting my bag back were it had been.

A tear escaped my eye, I quickly wiped it off thinking that Keyana didn't see me but I was wrong.

"Come on Aries, Are you going to do the same thing over and over again? Cry and cry till you can't cry nomore?" She asked and right there my tears fell on the table.

"It's hard key, It's very hard" I muttered shaking my head "I ask myself how long can I go on like this, How long do I still have to suffer in order for me to be free and happy again?"

5 years still without him, I honestly don't know how long I can go on like this.

"Kairan and Lexus are getting old, I don't even know what to tell my babies about their father.. Where do I even start?" I asked, keyana was very sensitive. She was very soft, I could see tears flooding her big eyes.

"You know Aries, God works in mysterious ways I believe that there is a reason why all that happened in your life. August is watching over you and he sees that you are trying so hard to protect his kids, Living is hell sometimes honey but trust me it's always worth it" she  said placing her hand ontop of mine.