Take the pain away

  LISIEN TO THIS SONG WILE READING all that I am by parachute

             "make a wish princes!" my dad said pulling me onto his lap. I smile looking up at him, I love my daddy he's my best friend. I took a big breath and blow out all the candles making a silent wish that my daddy will never leave me alone, but wishes never come true do they. I was 12 when I made that wish and then three months later he was ripped away from me.

              I'm now 17 and I don't know what I'm doing anymore every little thing hurts. I've moved in with my ant not long after it had happened. she's a good lady, but she's not always around. she tries to be there for me, but sometimes there's nothing she can do, we need to eat. I've been bullied and beaten so many times that I just stopped caring, but don't you think I'm a little cry baby. I had completely changed after it happened. I  stopped talking and started to push my friends away. They had then started calling me names and making fun at me. once it all started it didn't stop. The people that I once called friends became the people that I feared the most.

clapping surrounded me, pulling me back to reality. I stared at the flames in front of me. watching as they move around free "make a wish." my ant Halen whispered into my ear. I breathed in a little making a wish that none of them would every think of me making. I blow and watched as the candles want out. I let a tear slip down my face. my wish never comes true why would it be any different this year. I look around I'm still here I'm still alive. the party didn't last long, if you can call it that. it was just my ant, some of the last family members that I had left and that I didn't even really know. I only see them on family get together, for some reason they came this year to my birthday, maybe it was my ants doing thinking that it would make me fell better, but I'm happy that there gone. I just wanted to sit in my room alone and listen to music. it was maybe a hour or so when I herd a nock at my door I removed my headphones and watch as my ant came into my room. "baby I got some bad news." I just looked at her with a blank mask, but it was just that a mask. inside I was freaking out. "my boss just called...we need to move. they don't need me anymore here so they are sending me somewhere elc." moving. new people, new bully's. same hell whole of a life. "Are you okay with that?" I nodded and turned around again listened to my music on full blast. I knew she left the room and that's when I broke down and cried. I cried myself to sleep that night hoping everything would get better. I was leaving the only home that I have ever had. it feels like I'm losing my dad all over again.