Take the pain away

mate

he let out a small growl that sounded like 'mine.' just that simple word filled me with joy but just like that im sad again. knowing that im never going to be good enough and at that moment emmy decided to pop up. she had an overjoyed look on her face i looked at her with confuse. "taylor this is my brother jesse, jess this is my new best friend taylor." he growled agan trying to walk closer. his face showed joy but pain. his eyes are flashing every so often to a darker color showing his wolf wanted out. "hi taylor. why would someone so beautiful like yourself be friends with my ugly sister?" those words not only brought a blush to my face but only made me fell worse because i know hes lieing im not pretty im not even normal.

i put on a fake smile and look at him. it hurt not to really smile, he is my mate why must i hurt him with my problems. i hear my ant calling for me. i wave goodbye and walk to her. but i could hear them talking about me. "what do you know about her?" that was jess talking. "nothing really only she just moved here and likes being alone and also that she doesn't talk like ever." that made me freeze and look at him expecting the worse but only a soft 'my poor mate' was said. i don't need there pitty i thought bitterly as i climbed into the car and we speed away.

since that first day i haven't seen jess around that much but with a new wolf witch is me around i would think he would be searching for that. hes making it so much harder to let my wolve out a lot. but when he was here he was either looking at me or trying to talk to me. the mating bond it growing in just a short time. i have heard from james hes getting better, a lot better and he is actually moving in with us witch in a way will be both fun. He had been in the hospital for the past few months and it hurt when i had to leave him alone. he used to get beat at his house because of his course of life stile and by that he's gay. i stepped in and was beat not as worse but i still have the scares from it but it just added to the one's that i already have.

"hey taylor." i look up from my math homework im in study hall at the moment. i see jesse walking over to me. i try hard not to smile. lately i've been smiling a lot more. "i just wanted to see if you wanted to hang out with me after school?" i tore off a peace of paper and began to wright a apology to him. saying i had to much homework and that i needed to go strat home after school. it hurt to lie to him but i must. i cant really say 'sorry i cant because i need to meet your father the alpha before my best friend who's a boy comes to live with me and oh yeah im a werewolf too' now could I. i could she the pain in his eyes. he fells like im rejecting him but im not i love him. did i really just say o loved him. how can i love him were not even friends. we said our goodbyes when the bell rung for school to be over. i waited a few hours before going to the pack house.

walking up to the pack house was so tariffing. i got a lot of curies looks maybe wondering what a human was doing here. if only i was human. i nocked on the door and a old version of jesse was standing there. "why hello dear what can i help you with?" he asked with a friendly smile. i gave a small smile and handed him a small note. 'do you mind if i speak with you in privies for a few mints?' he looked me over with a curease look. taking a deep breath trying to calm my nerves. "sure follow me." he led me into a room that looked like an office. he sat in the char behind the desk and i sat right in front of him. its to late to back down.

(note he's talking and shes wrighting)

"what's your name?"

'taylor'

"why are you not just talking?"

'i stoped talking when i was 8.'

"why?"

'personal reasons.'

he noded and continued "what is it you need to talk to me about?"

'staying on your land.' i wrought slitly shacking. i couldnt look up in his eyes.

"what do you mean?"

'im a werewolf and i wanted to make sure its okay for me to stay?'

his smile never leaving his face "who are you staying with?" he asked laying back in his chare.

'my ant but she is human.'

"okay then you do not seem like you are dangerous so im allowing you to stay."

she smiled at him ' please do not tell anyone its a secret i want to keep.'

he smiled at me again softly proble sensing my fear "i promise i will not tell. is there anything elc you need to talk to me about."

noded i began to wright again. 'my friend is moving in with us and he is a witch would that be okay for him to stay? he has no where elc to go and i will not let him go home to be beat anymore.'

he smiled a sad smile at the last part "sure he is welcomed as well."

'thank you so much.'

i was leavening the house with the alpha following me when we where interrupted.

"dad what are you up...oh hey taylor what are you doing here?" i froze

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hey sorry about spelling and all that. So comment if you wanna. byeeeeeee leah out :)