Rollercoaster

Part 1

Life. Something precious. Something privileged. Sure, that's what they tell you. But you know what. They have lives too and they chose to lie. Life is not so wonderful and great as you thought it was. Trust me I would know more than anyone.

Yeah of course it is a journey - if it involves 5 trillion rollercoasters. Ok I have to admit sometimes it's alright when it is just me, my mum and my si... Me and my mum, no one else to bother us and we can do what we want. Well that is until I mess it all up again. If it wasn't for the fact my mum was extremely ill, I would have escaped to a little place called heaven by now, at least that way I would be with the only person that cared for me. She was my best friend, my other mum, my world and even better my sister. BUT BECAUSE OF ONE STUPID ARGUMENT SHE HAS GONE! I hate myself for that. It is all my fault. Life would have been worth living if she was still here. And just to add the cherry on top, my dad went and moved to the other side of the world with his new girlfriend. See told you life is pointless.

Everyday was a good day until 1pm exactly when the ambulance came and whisked my mum away from me until 10pm. I was left home alone for 9 whole hours to dread about how my life has been getting worse rather than better. That's when I realised I could escape without actually leaving. I had 9 hours alone... I had a kitchen... Which had draws full of knives... I had a wrist. By the time my mum came home I had had enough time to wash up, clean the floors, bandage up and she was so stressed from the day she went straight to bed. It has been 3 years. Everyone has lied to me, so a little lie about spraining my wrist doesn't hurt. I dropped out of school so it's not like I had to hide it from anyone there. The furthest I ever went was to the shed in my garden.