I wanted to wake up each morning (Poem)

I wanted to wake up each morning (Poem)

By forbiDDen30

<A/n: This isn't written to make you look bad but just to make you realize how big your part is in my life. So please don't hate me for this.>

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I wanted to wake up each morning

Without constantly reminding myself I should be fine

Without feigning a smile to prove I'm okay

Without fabricating my own reality inside my head.

I wanted to wake up each morning

As if yesterday never happened

As if tomorrow won't threaten to hurt me again

As if today isn't giving me another reason to fall apart.

I wanted to wake up each morning

Never feeling the sore after last night's cry

Never trying to endure the throbbing pain inside my chest

Never seeing the aftermath of what has been done.

I wanted to wake up each morning

Without the memory of losing my sanity

Without the scar of cutting my own skin

Without the relics of my broken heart.

I wanted to wake up each morning

As if the screaming was just part of the nightmare

As if the crying was never heard of

As if the bleeding was not real.

I wanted to wake up each morning

Never begging for someone to stay

Never doubting if I'm still good enough

Never wishing I could have been better.

I wanted to wake up each morning

Believing that the broken can still be whole

That hurt makes you stronger

That a curse is sometimes a gift.

I wanted to wake up each morning

When breathing is no longer suffocating

When touching the wounds no longer stings

When loving someone no longer means killing yourself.

I wanted to wake up each and every morning

With nothing but happiness

With everything but him

And with just one thought in mind,

"I have finally set myself free."

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"I always wanted to wake up each morning this way

But I can never do it 'til the day you'll stop to stay

In this heart of mine." (c)forbiDDen30