Niall Horan's twin sister

Chapter 2

Chapter 2: getting bad again

💀WARNING💀 this chapter contains self harm and self hate •panic attacks are mentioned•

Sam's pov

I ended up not going to any class's yesterday as I couldn't really care but I regret that now as I'm sitting in English not understanding a thing about how lady Macbeth is 'loving' to Macbeth urgh this sucks I just can't wait for the break so I can have a smoke and go and find Cass and Daisy. It's been about an hour now since the teacher started going on about how Lady Macbeth treats Macbeth, the bell just rang and thank the lord I'm out of that class.

I'm now walking back to my room, in hopes of Casey or Daisy being there. As I walk in and Casey is on her bed studying for some subject and Daisy is just on the couch on her phone, this describes my social life.

I walk over to my bed and get my cigarettes out of the nightstand and light one, I walk over to the window and push it open sitting on the ledge looking out at the forest which was next to the school probably the only reason I like it here. I just kind of sat there looking out smoking not thinking about anything in particular, I didn't even notice what I was doing until Casey shouted at me, turns out I was getting bad again harming myself without even realising, here I was sitting on the ledge of the window with a cigarette burning my skin, the worst part? I didn't even feel a thing until Casey pulled me back into the dorm.

I don't know how it happened but I woke up in the bath and someone was leaning over me getting something and when I say in the bath I mean just sitting in the bath no water and I was fully clothed, the person who was leaning over me now was sitting on the outside of the bath holding something in their hands and to be honest the person looked like Niall my brother what's he doing here I thought he went back home yesterday, "Niall" I croaked out, wait whys my throat sore?

But Niall seemed to hear me.

Niall's pov (this is kind of like a flashback but not at the same time does that make sense no okay whatever bye)

I was with the boys when I received the phone call and it went like this;

(N=Niall C= Casey)

N- Hey Sam

C- Don't ask why but I need your help please come down to the school

N- Why, but does it have to be right now I'm with the boys

C- Niall I don't give a damn who your fucking with but your sister just had a panic attack and that's all I'm telling you until you get the over here and stop being such a twat!

N- Fuck okay I'm on my way.

And that's when I ended the call and ran to my car like my life depended on it, I could hear Lou and everyone asking where I was going but I didn't dare stop. I drove about double the speed limit to get to Sam's school but I couldn't give a flying fuck as I just need to be with my sister.

Once I got to the school I put my glasses on and ran to Sam's dorm, I walked in and saw her, I thought she got better after I left for x-factor as she had a go-lucky (happy, free and kind of like carefree) type of attitude around me but I should of asked her and not of been so selfish about my career I can't even remember the last time she told me when something was wrong.

I feel so bad, Sam was on the floor near a window and had what looks like burns on her left arm but she had blanked out and was shaking uncontrollably, I don't think I want to even know what happen so I don't ask and get onto with helping my sister. I take the medicine out of my wallet that she needs, I've always kept one on me because I never knew when one could happen and I would need to help her.