Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, Leave me your feedback.
Zayn's Pov:
I want my old life back, I want my family, I want my mum, I want safety, I want a warm and cozy home to go back to at the end of a long day. I want a normal job. I just wanna go home, I've made so many mistakes and I know there's no going back, There's no changing what's done, I can't go back to a time where everything was normal, I can't go back home because my family don't want me, I ruined there life, I ruined my life. For so long I put up a wall around me, A wall that kept out all kinds of emotions, A wall that stopped me getting involved with people because I couldn't do that anymore, I couldn't allow myself to feel emotion, I couldn't be weak, I had to be a machine, No feelings, No nothing, That way nothing and nobody could hurt me. For so long Louis was the only one I had, He looked out for me and cared, He protected me from Joe, Took me under his wing, I spent so long thinking I can't trust anyone, But now I think I can.
Since that first night with Niall he hasn't given up on me. Even when I was a complete asshole to him he didn't give up. I still remember that night, The moment I looked at him I saw the same fear in his eyes I had the night Joe took me in, I saw a scared boy who was defenceless, So I helped him I didn't think anything of it, He was the first client to show me any sort of kindness, But I couldn't get involved, But last night when he found me he was so kind, Gave me food and a warm bed to sleep in, I feel like I can trust him, I feel like he really wants to be there for me without getting anything in return. I think that's how I ended up here, Outside Niall's home, I took a deep breath before knocking on the door, I then stepped back and waited for the door to open, After a while it did and there stood Niall, His eyes widened.
"Zayn what the hell happened?!" Niall exclaimed as he took a look at me.
"You still fancy that talk?" I mumbled, Niall nodded before stepping aside, I slowly walked into this place.
"Go to my room, I'll get you some water" Niall said, I nodded before walking to his bedroom, I slowly sat down on the bed before removing my jacket, Moments later Niall walked into the room with a bowl of water, A wash cloth and a t-shirt in his hands, He placed the bowl on the floor before dropping the wash cloth into it.
"Zayn what happened to you?" Niall asked while rinsing the cloth out, He then began cleaning my busted lip.
"You wanted to know why I do it" I mumbled, Niall looked at me before slowly nodding.
"When I was younger I got involved with the wrong crowd, I started doing things I shouldn't have, I'd fight, Steal, Drink, Party, Heck even take the odd drug, At the time I didn't think what I was doing was bad, I thought I was cool, I thought I had all these friends that had my back, They were like my family. At first it was just me and my friends who got grief but then my family started getting harassed, One day my mum had enough, She said she didn't know who I was anymore, That's when she threw me out" I informed him.
"What? How old were you?" Niall asked.
"Sixteen" I replied as Niall gently cleaned my lip.
"What?! Where did you go?" Niall questioned.
"I called my friends, That was when I found out they wern't really my friends, I had no where to go, No one to turn to, Then I was mugged everything I had in my pocket was taken, I was scared, Cold and vulnerable, That's when Joe found me, He showed me kindness and offered me a home in exchange for work, I didn't know what work he meant back then, I didn't really ask, I was just grateful for a place to stay" I said.
"What happened next?" Niall asked as he placed the washcloth back into the water. "Shirt off, You can put this on" He added, I sighed before pulling the shirt from my body, I ignored Niall's shocked eyes as I quickly put on the shirt he gave me, It was baggy but warm.
"After that he took me back to the apartment that's when I met Louis, He was trying to get me to go home, He kept telling me I had to go, But I couldn't, That's when he told me what Joe wanted me to do, He told me we have to sleep with people for money, At first I thought he meant women but then I found out it was men, I was so scared, But I couldn't leave, Then Louis was telling Joe I was just a kid, When Joe told me I wasn't going anywhere that's when his true colours showed, He attacked Louis right infront of me. After Joe left Louis sat me down and he spoke to me, I told him I'd never had sex with a guy before but Louis he was there for me, He was also the one I lost my virginity to, He taught me everything told me how to switch off when we have a client, How to show no emotions, He was the one helping me when Joe gets violent and well here I am now" I explained.
"So Joe was the one who caused all this? He's the one who hurt you?" Niall said.
"Yeah" I mumbled.
"And he did this to you tonight?" Niall questioned, I nodded.
"Is he violent all the time?" Niall exclaimed, I shook my head.
"No, Only when we don't do what he wants, Or we don't do good enough with the clients, If we don't make him enough money that's when he gets annoyed" I informed him, Niall looked at me with soft eyes.
"Why don't you go home Zayn? You don't deserve this life" Niall exclaimed.
"I can't go home, My mum she hates me, This is my life now" I stated.
"It's been years Zayn I'll bet she misses you so much" Niall said, I shook my head.
"She don't want anything to do with me, She's made that pretty clear" I mumbled.
"But you can't keep living like this, Your constantly being beaten up if not by a client then that scumbag" Niall said.
"I don't have a choice, Louis and I are planning on leaving but we need to get some money together first" I informed him, Niall sighed.
"I'm here for you, You know that right?" Niall stated as he placed his arm around me, I looked him in the eyes before nodding. "You and Louis if you ever need a place to go you can come here" Niall said, I smiled.
"Are you sure? I don't wanna drag you down" I exclaimed.
"Your not dragging me down, I wanna do this" Niall said, I smiled. "Get some sleep ok?" Niall added, He went to stand up but I shook my head.
"Stay" I whispered, Niall nodded before turning off the light he then laid beside me, I timidly placed my head on his chest, I then felt Niall's arm wrap around my waist. "Niall, Thankyou" I whispered as I slowly closed my eyes, I thought I'd regret opening up to Niall but I don't, And being here now for the first time in a long time, I feel safe.
