Empty Space #Wattys2016

12)Painful

Is he proposing?

My cheeks flushed red at the thought of marrying him but for now I'll just have to wait. Hoping time would fly by and I'll be back with him again.

"Mina?"

"Hmm?" I replied almost too quickly.

"Did you hear what I said?"

I smiled looking down on the ground, shy to look into his eyes.

"Yea-" my sentence was cut off as soon as my eyes caught the sight of a camera and a man from the building in front of us.

Shit! Paparazzi!

I quickly made distance with him knowing the consequences if we got caught. Hurriedly I backed away turning around hoping the camera man doesn't catch our faces. Suho's hand gently brushed against mine almost a sign of saying goodbye to me before making his way out of the roof top area and into the building.

I watched the door close behind him leaving me alone on the rooftop. Turning around I noticed that the man was no where to be seen. My legs finally gave in, making me drop down to the floor, knowing that that was our goodbye.

"I love you Kim Junmyeon..." I whispered.

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"Flight Number CX145 departing for Paris, ready for boarding at gate 65"

I picked up my bags from the ground, giving up at the thought of him coming to say goodbye. Although I felt sad but deep down I knew this is the best way to end this, seeing him would just make everything harder for the both of us.

Standing in front of the boarding gate I looked down at the email I haven't had the courage to send yet.

Oppa,

I know you're busy so I'm going to make this fast. I've never found saying goodbye this hard in my life...

You know how happy I was yesterday when you asked me to marry you that day...but for now I'm not going to reply to your question yet...so you better ask me again when we see each other next time.

I'll really miss having you by my side.

Remember that night when I was waiting to see you at your house...I thought you would be happy to see me ...you know how scared I was when you told me to leave, I thought you were going to break up with me...

This may sound cheesy but every time you asked me to stay. I almost want to cancel my flight that second but I know if I do I would regret the decision. So be proud of me oppa!

But For now...Good Bye Kim JunMyeon

Pressing send. I switched off my phone and made my way into the aircraft.