Are you really there?

Willow

Chapter 1:

I'm completely and utterly exhausted. It's been 6 years since I've been hit by that car. I've learned to realize that the dead that still walk don't realize they are dead. I've also found out, never tell them their dead. It fucks them up pretty badly. 

I've been keeping it a secret for so long. I've been watching my friends and watching the spirits that follow them. When it's an evil spirit I take the spirits off of them and put them on myself. I'd rather put myself through the torture than have them go through it. They don't know what’s going on.

I'm burning alive. The fire is eating at my hair and the smoke is replacing the oxygen. I can't get up. My body feels chained down. I can't move. I can't escape the smoke. It's too much and I pass out. I wake up in my bed, sweating and shaking. I just experienced the death of a ghost.

That’s my night every day. Every night I experience anywhere from one to max I'm at is 8 ghost deaths. If anything I just want to tell them they're dead, leave me and my life be. That would be a disaster though. Maybe that’s what I need right now, a disaster that will blow them out of my sight.

Waking up from my midnight dreams I get in the shower bumping into about 3 more spirits. My sister stares at me like I'm insane, bumping into things that aren't even there. I just shrug and laugh. "You know the deal Rin, It being too early and all." She just rolls her eyes and goes to make a bagel. I glare at the people I walk by and growl softly. They step back pretty quickly.

"You missed a spot. Hey, Hey, Nicolette, you missed a spot." Putting on my foundation to cover my paler than a snowman skin is practically impossible when you have a little 5 year old at your elbow pointing at every spot that my pale skin pokes out. "Can I put on your eyeliner? Please. Please. Puhleaseeee!!" I'm a sucker for kids but that last time I let Willow help my mascara fell through her hand and she almost realized the truth. I ended telling her I dropped it. "No Hun, you can't help me today. I got to hurry up for school." For a couple seconds she pouts and then her eyes light up. "Can I go to school with you today??? I haven't gone in forever!!! I'll even hide if you want me to!!! I'll put my hiding jacket on. Only Nicki will see me." Her face is so lit up with joy that I don't know if I could say no to that face. "Willy, I don't know if I can bring you today. Remember last time you freaked out because no one else could see you because you forgot you were wearing your hiding jacket? I wouldn't want that happening again". I pretended she's invisible in her jacket last time in hopes to let her have some time out but she got so upset she basically had a mini a hurricane running up and down the halls of school. I put my foundation in my bag and see her on my dresser swinging her legs wearing her little red coat and black dress. The outfit she died in. She ended up getting in a bus accident. She thinks I'm her sister. I treat her like my sister. For a 5 year old she is very smart. I think she understands she's not like me. I think she knows there something going on but she knows if she thinks too much about it she'll leave. She doesn't want that. "You can go with me on one condition Willow."  She leaps to my bed and jumps up and down making the springs groan. I just laugh at her enthusiasm. "Sissy, I'll do anything!" I just smile and pick her up. Yes I can touch them without my hand going through their body, no. I dont understand why. "You have to be really quiet" I say holding her little face "And if I'm talking to someone don't distract me Hun." She just smiles and puts her hand in mine. And with that a little girl that can't be seen and a 17 year old that doesn't want to be seen head out the door.