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Sabrina Part 2.

You know just having one fan is awesome. Thanks for reading this. You know who you are.. I hope. Do you? Omg!!! There is a person wearing a glow in the dark!!!! The lights are off cuz we are doing history notes (We being them) and he just walked in and was like GLOW!!!

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Sabrina's POV

I can feel her aura. It's getting weaker. She is getting weaker. She won't let me help her. She needs to stop pulling spirits off of people. They are slowly destroying her. She thinks I don't notice the scars and fresh cuts on her arms. I know she puts makeup on them and then wears sleeves. I'm not dumb. I wish I could help, but I can't. As far as I know anyway. Before her, I thought I was insane. I saw colors that weren't there. I felt things that shouldn't be felt. I dreamed of tomorrow and didn't live today.

I drew pictures of the past and let go of the present. I secluded myself from everyone so I couldn't feel what they felt. The dreams keep coming. Of shadows and darkness. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and there is no warmness from the cold. I don't know what to do when she won't let me do anything to help her. She slowly closes herself off and won't let anyone help her. Willow is someone I cant see but I feel as if she helps her more than she would want.

Her eyes were black earlier. They went from purple to black and she didn't notice.  I knew she was seeing things that I couldn't see. Sometimes i worry about what she sees. I can't help her with things I can't see. Compared to her I feel blind. I asked if she wanted to take something for it. She almost bit my head off. I realized how she would feel when I tried the pill. I felt disconnected. I felt like I was missing half of myself. I trashed that idea after that. I don't like to see her suffer but I think she might suffer more if she didn't have her gift. She doesn't think of it as a gift. Especially when the 22nd comes around. That reminds me, I need to get ready for tomorrow. She is going to be very exhausted afterward. She was already today. It looked like she was gonna fall over any second. Her eyes looked red from no sleep and her face looked collapsed. 

I don't understand why she needs to act strong all the time. I think she does it for me and Willow . She needs to stay strong for all the people that depends on her. But does she need to? Or can she rest for once? Can she have some freedom for once?

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You ever wonder why Green Day is called Green Day instead of like Purple Day or something? I'm sorry. I was listening to "21 guns" And thinking why green. Just like I was wondering why dudes carry combs in their pockets. Like are you gonna be notes and suddenly feel the need to whip out a comb and comb your hair... Like what?