(18+ ONLY) Hidden Desires

Chapter 2

On Monday, there was a knock at my door. I opened it to find Lieina. She'd consumed me all weekend and now, here she was on my doorstep looking rather confused. Or was that worry? She was truly worried about me.

"Kayla! I’ve been trying to call since you left Friday! What happened? Are you okay? Did we do something wrong? Is your phone dead or just off? Why did you leave like that? Are you mad at us?"

"Slow down, Lieina. I'm fine. I just had to go. I remembered I had an appointment and I was late."

"An appointment?" her eyebrow went up.

I love that thing she does that lets you know she doesn't believe a word you're saying. How could I have never noticed that gold tint in the brown of her eyes?

"What about the phone?"

"Okay, look Lieina, there isn't anything wrong. You're just going to have to believe me and let it go, okay? It's personal and, well. I'll stay out of yours and you stay out of mine, okay?" I kept moving away from her and she kept stepping into my space forcing me to look at her, to smell that damned Dona Karan perfume she always wears, and the soft delicious smell of the lavender and vanilla shampoo that Andrew buys her all the time. Crap. I was hopeless.

"Kayla, honey?" That's what she calls me when she's being serious. "You're in big trouble! You are as deep into my personal stuff," she made quotes in the air with her fingers "as you can be! And besides that we're, or so I thought, we were friends?"

"We are friends, Lieina. Okay, could you be satisfied with the fact that I'm just not ready to talk about it with you?"

There was an infinitely long pause.

"K," she grinned a crooked grin around the still pooched out lip. And then she stepped in and hugged me. Her skin felt like a rose peta,l it was so soft, and I'd been privy to her being stripped naked enough to know that there was absolutely nothing underneath that smocked sundress. "So... You'll come to dinner with us tonight? I've picked out a name and Andrew is taking me to the fondue place I love, so I can tell Him!"

"Actually, I have a lot to wri-“

"Pleeease?"

"Yeah, okay."

"Thank you, Kayla! It wouldn't feel right without you there. You are such a big part of our lives that we feel like something is missing when you aren't around." She gave me another quick hug and headed for the door while my head was still swimming in her smell. "Our reservation is at seven-thirty so we'll pick you up at seven?"

"Sure," I think I managed a smile with no traces of anguish.

And then she was gone, leaving behind her delicious scent to torment me a bit longer.

I asked myself that question all afternoon. I'm not gay. At least, I never thought I was. No. I'm definitely not gay. I've never in my life been attracted to another woman. Until Lieina. But, that wasn't all of it. Because I was fairly certain that if Andrew had been the one to come to the apartment that afternoon I'd have felt the same way. I would need to test that theory. Surely I would be in His presence alone at some point during the night. I wracked my brain for a time when I had ever been completely alone with Andrew. I went to the bathroom to take my shower and remembered something so I stopped at the linen closet in the hallway and opened the door. There were a few towels, and some aspirin, hair clip -and then I saw it. Over to the side of a shelf was a dark purple bottle. Lieina gave it to me with my other birthday presents from Them. It was a bottle of that shampoo, lavender and vanilla. Needless to say, I took a very long shower. And just as long to do my hair. And makeup. And pick out my clothes. I think I changed fifty times. In the end, I chose a knee-high dark crimson dress - that showed off my tits. Of course, my tits show off no matter what I'm wearing. They are definitely a prominent feature on me. I'm a lot like Lieina in that way.

That, however is where our similarities end. While Lieina has that wonderfully rich chocolate brown hair, mine is a deep black. I've played around with color before but it is always some version of blue or red. My skin is very fair and I don't tan like most people but I do get sort of coppery. Lieina always says my skin looks "slightly sun-kissed." Sometimes I wish I were the typical pale skinned girl because that would make my nipples less obvious. Of course, pale skin wouldn't hide the fact that they are puffy but it would camouflage the fact that my areolas are so pale they look white perched on my coppery hued tits. I'm average in height, about 5'5", my eyes are green, and while I've worked hard not to let the extra pounds creep on, my hips have a natural flare to them. I'm not a good judge of my own beauty but I have been complimented sincerely enough to know that I'm at least "pretty."