MIDDLE

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"Stop teasing me na bf please?" After how many pang-aasar, finally tumigil na din si Jessey. Salamat naman.

We're here in my house specifically at my room, she wake me up just to tease me about Kiefer. Just kidding. Sinabi niya na wala kaming class today since there's an event sa school which is not mandatory and okay lang kahit hindi kami pumasok. So being the lazy girls, we grabbed the opportunity to stay na lang sa house and we're planning to watch movies and eat.

Hindi naman hassle kay Jessey magpunta dito because kapitbahay lang namin sila and anytime pwede siyang pumasok sa bahay and ganun din naman ako sa kanila. Our parents are also friends, in fact mag-bestfriends din si Mama and Jessey's mom and they're really close to the point na they planned na magkatabi yung bahay nila. I don't know it that is goals for you but for me, that is some serious friendship goals.

"Okay so let's be serious na bf, I'm really really really happy for you. Finally you found the one and I could not be any happier because I can see na masaya ka. So totoo lang Ye, you've changed..." and that made me crease and wonder.

"You've changed a lot. No, not the negative side. Nag-iba ka because Kiefer changed you into someone who is not afraid of people. Although I know hindi ka pa din fully open with that but at least you're not that Mika who's always frightened of the people around her. It's because he motivates you, he encourages you to just be yourself and don't mind what others may think of you." She said. Jessey actually has a point, Kiefer is really helping me to be courageous and to always do what I want to do.

"Hindi ba ako dapat matakot bf? Kasi he's changing me. Paano kung mawala siya? What if one day he will leave me without saying anything? 'Coz bf we both know that I'm not used to do these things before but now I'm getting used to it. Na sobrang nasasanay na ko. Na kapag dumating yung panahon na sanay na sanay na ko, bigla niya kong iwan. Because maybe he will find me boring or not good enough. And if that time comes, I don't know if I could survive, I don't know what will I do. Di ko talaga alam Jessey. I'm afraid because I think I'm falling in love with him na." I seriously said. That's what I'm afraid of. I literally said these things to Jessey because I have to. I have to hear what is her opinion about this because no one knows me like she do.

"I get it because first time mo nga naman but bf remember, great love includes great risks. If he really is your great love, for sure there are a lot of obstacles and bumps along the way but it will all be worth it. It's like you're watching your favorite tv series, you don't know what will happen in the next episodes but you still patiently wait for it. Wag mo muna isipin yung mangyayari in the future, enjoy the moment muna bf. Don't let your anxiety hinder you from enjoying your life. Seize the moment bf! Love lang ng love!" Most of the time puro kalokohan mga sinasabi nito ni Jessey but when you need it the most, she can go from baliw na bamboo to seryosong bestfriend. That's why I love this one, I don't know if I could ever survive without her.

"Serious naman natin bf. Hahaha. Thank you Jessey Laine that made my mind clear and now my heart is at peace. Lol. But thank you talaga because I don't know anong gagawin ko without you. I'm gonna hug you for this. I love you bf!" And I hugged her tightly as if she is a human-sized stuffed toy but hindi siya fluffy like a teddy bear because she's payat. Oops sorry bf, I'm bullying you in my mind.

"And you know I love you too right? So since we're talking about you and Kiefer, kailan mo siya balak sagutin?" She asked. Hay I don't know.

"Let's watch a movie na, what do you want?" I changed the topic and it seems like she understand me because I did not answer her question and she just shrugged it off.

"The Vow na lang bf." She said.

"Okay The Vow sounds nice."

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