MY FIRST LOVE (MARKSON)

CHAPTER 5

'Mark was finally coming to school a few days after what happened last time. A bit awkward as I didn't know why I was so worried and to the extend of hugging him so tightly like that.' Jackson thought.
'Soooo freaken embarrassing.' Jackson slapped his face.

"Wtf?" Jinyoung said, causing Mark looked at him weirdly.

'But I just can't help to smile, knowing that I will be able to see him again.'
'But why am I feeling like this?' Jackson sighs while grinning to himself from time to time.

"What's wrong with him today?" Jaebum asked.

"I. Do. Not. Know." Jinyoung shrugs.

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Mark POV
Sigh*
"When are you ever gonna stop following me?" I asked.

"Well, I'm going to school so I'm not exactly following you." Jackson said, walking beside me.

"Well, you didn't have to wait for me and stuff."

"Well, waiting for a friend is a must and plus we are right opposite of one another, aren't I having manners waiting for a friend? And we are also heading the same way, so why not?" Jackson asked, saying it so proudly.

"I never said I was your friend!"

"Shh. It's still early in the morning." Jackson said, placing his finger on my lips to prevent me from being loud.

"What the hell are you doing?" I slapped his finger away and walked faster, ahead of him. I placed my hand on my chest and wonder...
(Why is it beating so fast?... I'm just angry... that must be the reason why. It's not like I have feelings for him... Yeah that's right! That must be the reason why!) I tried to convince myself.

"Mark, wait for me." Jackson said and started running catching up to me but I kept walking faster and faster. Until I accidentally trip on a fken rock.
"Mark! You okay?" Jackson ran towards me and held onto me, looking really worried. I just stared at him while Jackson is looking at my bleeding knees. When he look at me with worried eyes, I shook my head side to side, telling myself that
'I can't! I hate him! I don't like him! That's all! You can't fall for someone who just left you like that, without telling you anything. Without saying goodbye...' A tear drop dropped from my eyes from remembering about those memories... those painful memories.

"Mark, why are you crying? Does it hurt that much?" Jackson asked with worried eyes, once again.

"It's nothing." I said and wiped my tears, stood up but couldn't so I fell in Jackson's arms since he caught onto me.

"What do you mean 'it's nothing'?" Jackson shouted.

"Don't touch me." I pushed him away from me. (I don't want to remember anything... I don't want to see him...)

"But you can't walk properly." Jackson said and walked beside me, supporting me.

"Stop acting all nice would you!"

"But you're hurt! And I'm not trying to act all nice!... You know it's like my heart got stabbed when you get hurt... I just don't know why... I just want to protect you... but I wasn't able to... you were the one who always were protecting me..." Jackson shouted, then the tone became softer.

"I wasn't protecting you! It was just... I couldn't stand it. That's all!" I tried to convince him and also... myself.

"If I'm wrong then... why did you help me?" Jackson asked with sad eyes.

"I already told you that I just couldn't stand it. Seeing people bullying people... I couldn't stand it. Even if it's not you I would have come to help as well. At first I walked away since I saw the person was you..."

"But at the end you came to help me!"

"I didn't want to, cause it was you! You want to know something? I really hate you alot. Do you even know that?" I asked, tears in my eyes but I swallowed them back.

"Why? Why do you hate me?" Jackson asked, tears in his eyes.

"I just hate you!" I said and walked away.
'Why is he crying? Why does he look so hurt?' I asked myself.
'It's not my fault. It's his fault that I hate him. You can't blame me... But why am I crying?' I asked myself, with tears spilling from my eyes. I squat down, placing my head down.
'Why am I crying? Why does it hurt me from seeing him cry?' I asked myself as more tears falls.

'Why do I always feel so weak around him?'
End of chapter~
A short chapter todayyyy but enjoyyy