Hey, um I am Never going to make an author's note unless i have too, but this has been on my mind forever. First I'll tell you about myself.
My name is Madi, I'm in a band(Walking Daydreams), I am 14, almost 15, I have a twin along with four other siblings, an i live in the states but I have the mind of someone from the uk.
Now that you know that i have something to say, there is this person that I know, I'm not going into details about the person but I need people to just, i know this is going to sound odd but, i need you to pray for this person. this person is so broken and needs to know that they are loved and everything.
in my other book i wrote about my week at camp, and after that week i changed.i am not the same self loathing person i was when i went up that mountain. I never want to go back ever again, i never what to be that depressed ever again, i don't want to bite my hands anymore just to make the pain go away.
I never want anyone to feel the way i felt, like i had to act during the day because i didn't want to bring anyone else down. I want everyone to feel loved, the people who thing that their lives are not worth living, the people who get yelled at and called names, because no matter what they say that they wont bring you down.
because you are loved. you are loved more than you know. i hereby pledge all of my days to prove it so. You are amazing and worth it. I pray that whoever is reading this, the one person, or anyone who stumbled upon this short little chapter, that you know that you are loved and you are worth it.
I know you're angry, you're angry at your parents, you're angry at your friends, you're angry at the world, you are angry at everyone. you are angry that they let this happen, you are broken.
you are not ok.
no matter how many times you say you are so people would never find out, they would never find out how lone and how sad and how depressed you are and how much you hate yourself.
here's my secret, there is no 'the person'. i just feel like there is someone out there who needs to here these things. No one is truly alone, and if you feel alone then reach out, tell people that you feel alone, tell people that you need someone to be there for you, and not leave like you absent dad, or your betraying friends, or your siblings that desperately need you just as much as you need them.
Now, to whoever is reading this, I, Madi, love you. I don't know you, i have no idea what you are like and what colour your hair is, but i love you.
so now when you thin that no one loves you, you'll be wrong, because i love you.
i feel really stuck up rn >_<. I'm sorry if you felt like i was mean at all during this chapter/rant thing.
Love you,
MR
