21 letters to him

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I woke up to my mom turning on my light and shaking me awake. " mommmm. Turn the light off" I turn to were she was standing. " no, now get up " she leaves my room and I get up with a groan.
            After a couple minutes I decided to actually get up. I went and brushed my teeth in my bathroom. I went to the bathroom to change my clothes. I wore light blue jeans with a Rolling Stones tour shirt. I put my hair in a messy bun. Then my Nike shoes and sunglasses. I grabbed my phone and headed down stairs.
                " hi mom " I grabbed an apple and started to bite into it. " hi darling. Make sure Ava gets on the bus. I have to head to work early. Also Shawn in gonna be here any minute." She kissed my check them heads out the down.
Soon after Ava heads down the stairs to and leaves to her bus. I went to text Shawn but he was knocking on the door. I grabbed my backpack and ran out the door. " hello gorgeous " he says bowing down like I'm some sort of queen. I giggled at his gesture and said "why hello prince" we both looked at each other and started laughing.
             It was a quick walk to school so when we got there we had a couple minutes to talk to our friends. Shawn, Dylan, Hayley and I were probably one of the most popular people in school. I don't like how everyone always knows you're business but I'm always meeting new friends.
             Shawn and Dylan were having a conversation about some guy stuff but Hayley pulled me aside and said " have you told Shawn yet? " I look over at the guys making sure they weren't listening. " no, I don't want to ruin our friendship " I looked at the ground trying not to avoid eye contact. " I know how you feel, it's okay " we both walked over to the guys and the first bell rang.

* skip to end of the school day *

Shawn and I always meet at the second bench in front of the school to walk home. I waited for a couple minutes and there he was running to me. " Amaya!!! " I stood up and giggled at his face expressions. " what do you want? " he stopped in front of me and said " nothing " we both looked at each other and laughed.
              " do you want to come over? " he asked watching the sidewalk as he walked next to me. " sure, I can bring Ava over so she can hang out with Aaliyah. " he looked at me and smiled. Oh how I love his smile. We got to his house and waited on the porch for Ava and Aaliyah to get off the bus. After about 10 minutes they came running over to us. " Amaya, can I go to Aaliyah's house" she was half way across the street when she asked but came in here in a heart beat. " yeah because I'm going over there too " we all walked into shawn's house and sat in the living room.
            Karen came in soon and brought us some watermelon. " thank you " we all said in Unison. A couple hours passed and soon Ava and I had to go home. We walked home hand in hand. If you asked me why I wouldn't know really. It was dark and scary.
            When we opened the door we saw our mom and dad having a make out session in the kitchen. " EWWW" we both yelled and ran out.
" oh please, wait till you and Shawn start to do this " my mom says throwing a wash cloth at me. I rolled my eyes and threw it back. " we are just friends " I say sitting at the island. I grabbed Apple from the bowl and my father says " I see the way he looks at you " i rolled my eyes again. I got up and yelled " I'm taking a shower " while I went up the stairs.
         I went into my bathroom and started my shower. Since it was fall I like to have my showers really warm. I also like to preform in the shower. It's in my nature, I just can't help it. After about 20 minutes of me singing in the shower I got out but my pj shorts on and just a t-shirt.
I sat at my desk and got out another sheet of paper. I started writing to Shawn again.

Shawn,

I find myself playing you over and over again in my mind. I can't stop thinking about you. I want to be able to wake up with you in my arms. I want to call you mine. I want to hold your hand in public. I want to kiss you when ever I want. Most of all I want you to love me back. I can see it in your eyes that you feel a way about me but I can't tell. Everyone tells me that you love me back but I don't believe them. I so badly want you. I want you. I need you.

Amaya G.

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I layed on my bed and scrolled through Twitter. I saw a Tweet from Shawn:

@shawnmendes
I wish I can call you mine

I favorited it and put my phone on my charged and drifted to sleep.

A/n
I'm going to shawns concert August 13th who's going to be there?

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