21 letters to him

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Shawn pov ( you weren't expecting that)

I didn't really sleep last night. I kept tossing and turning, thinking about her. I just want to be able to call her mine. Maybe I should tell her. I'll tell her tonight. I looked up at my clock and saw it was already 7:10 and school started at 7:30 so I got up. I put on my navy blue shirt with dark blue jeans and black vans. I went downstairs and started to eat my banana when I got a text from Amaya:

#1 bff :
Come to my house early

From me:
Okay be there in 2

I said goodbye to my mom and dad them left to her house. Amaya opened the door immediately. " I need help on what to wear. " she took me by my hand and rushed up stairs. God she looks so beautiful in her pjs." We have a meet today for the school gymnastics team and we have to dress up today. What shirt goes with this skirt?" She points to the black shirt or a blue and white stripes shirt. " black because it goes with everything. " she grabbed her clothes and kissed my check then she rushed to the bathroom. I really do love this girl. She came out of the bathroom and Amaya look absolutely stunning.
      We head downstairs and said goodbye to her parents then headed out the door. On the way we talked about the most random stuff. " I'm sorry about kissing you on the cheek. " you could tell her cheeks were getting red because of the way she looks at the ground. " no, no, no, it's fine. I kinda liked it " shit shit shit shit, Shawn why did you saw that. " me too "
We saw the school in view so we stopped talking about it. " hey Dylan, I got you ask you something" I lead him away from Amaya and I told him what I wanted to tell everyone for a while but been so afraid to. " I'm in love with Amaya " I looked at the ground and then back up at him. " I knew it. Tell her. She loves you too " I gave him a hug and gave him a thank you.

Amaya pov

I was know in fourth period, which is my study hall. I was sitting here thinking about Shawn. I can't believe I kissed his cheek. I mean it's not a big deal but I'm an over thinker. What if he doesn't even like me back? Should I tell him?
I opened my notebook and decided to write him another letter.

Shawn,

I wish there is an easier way to tell you this. I think I love you. Yes, love is a strong word but i have felt this way for a while. I get jealous when I see a girl flirting with you, even if you have no absolute interest in her. I just want you to never give up on me and on yourself. I don't want this to ruin our friendship because of my dumb thoughts. Just know I will always still love you, no matter how often you'll hate me.

                                  Amaya G.

the bell soon rang and it was time for lunch. Shawn and I always walk to our lockers together to get our lunch because we both hate school lunches. I waited for Shawn for a couple minutes but he never came. So I walked to my locker by myself. What if he hates me now. I should probably be thinking of the gymnastics meet I have after school but I just can't wrap my mind around one certain topic at the moment.
       I headed to the lunch room and saw Dylan and Hayley at the table. I sit down with them but still haven't seen Shawn. " where is Shawn?" The two of them exchange looks but replied with the same answer of no. I kept looking around the room. Plenty of people were staring but I could care less.
        The rest of the day went by fast but still didn't see Shawn till 9th period which was Social Studies. Our teacher never lets us talk in there. Maybe Shawn was planning something.
After 9th period was over, he walked with me to our lockers. " sorry I didn't talk to you today" he leaned against the locker next to mine. He ran his fingers through he hair. " no it's fine " I closed my locker and we left the building.
      The walk home was quite. Nothing was said to expect for the occasional sorry he would keep repeating. " want to come over? " he asked as we turned on our street. " I have a gymnastics meet remember " I looked him in the eyes. I like his lazy eye. I thought it made him look hot. Wait, did I just call him hot?
      " oh yeah. Well I'm gonna go. " he said as we went our separate ways to our homes. I unlocked my front door. I pushed the door harder then I needed to so it went flying when I opened it. I so badly want to know what's on his mind.
      I sat at the island in the kitchen and did my homework till it was time for my meet.

A/N OMG SHORT CHAPTER I KNOW IM SORRY BUT IM GONNA POST ANOTHER LATER ON. ITS CURRENTLY 1:05 AM SO GOODNIGHT

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