Till You Need Me

broken

The physical aspect of the attack took less time to clean up .Moving the bodies out of the courtyard fixing the break in the fence. But emotionally and mentally that was going to take a lot longer.

The attack had left everyone in shock and grieving . T-dog had died saving Carol . Lori had died giving Birth to her baby . Now we were left in a complete mess. Rick was a emotional mess not talking to anyone since Lori had died he hadn't even seen his baby yet.

He just disappeared inside the prison and we all gave him space. Truth be told we all need space but we just had to take what we could get and start to build back some sort of normal life within these walls

The baby was crying again ..you rolled out of bed and picked her up out of the makeshift crib that was inside your cell . She was hungry .. We didn't even know what to call her because Rick won't talk to us and poor Carl shouldn't have to name his own sister not after what he just went through.

So for now you just called her baby girl .."Are you hungry Baby girl ?" you talked to her softly as you gave her one of the bottles that were already prepared Right after she had been born Daryl had gone on a run to find her some food .

She took the bottle and drank hungrily . You watched her as she ate and once again your thoughts turn to Rick .. They had been doing that a lot lately.. Even before the attack and before . You had realize a long time ago your feelings for him were more than just friends.. You loved him ..but because he was married and his wife was pregnant you never said anything and now.. You couldn't even think about trying to say anything so you would just be here for him ..even if he didn't know it .

"Still no sign of Rick uh?" you asked for breakfast as you finish feeding the baby before you handed her over to Beth. Hershel shook his head " I don't even think he came back into sleep " he said. You sigh and stood up " he needs to eat and get some rest " you said you grab your knife and a gun and a flashlight. Glenn grab your arm " be careful "he said

" I will " you told him and walked back into tombs . I knew he would be at the boiler room where Lori died so that where you were headed. The hallways were lined up with the bodies of walkers that Rick had taken down and you could see now he had been a man on a mission.

You made it to the boiler room and slowly open the door and with gun raised you headed down the stairs.. "Rick ?" you called softly you turn the corner and you saw him sitting up against a wall there was an old dial phone sitting in front of him and he was staring at it just like he was expecting it to ring. He looked up when he heard you approached you slid your gun in you holster on your side and put your knife.

" How are you doing ?" you asked softly.. Bending down in front of him. He looked at you but you knew he wasn't really looking at you . It was sad really to see this once strong man broken like this. " waiting .." he finally said looking back down at the phone " Why for what ?" you asked "For her to call back " he said . You looked down at the phone and back at him

.Then it hit you and you had to swallow tears back you sat down in front of him and slowly reached out taking his hand in yours he stiffen up but didn't pull away " Rick ..she not going to call.. " you said softly watching his reaction ." she will she did before she will call back" he said his hands were trembling in yours. " you need to snap out of this .. You have kids to take care of people who love.... care for you who are worried about you " please Rick you need to come back with me. " you need to get some eat and get some sleep " you told him.

He didn't say anything just looked back down at the phone .. Please Rick ..for me " you said tugging on his hand a little Suddenly he lunged forward knocking you backwards " NO I'M FINE JUST GO " he was yelling now .. You scramble to your feet trying not to cry and nodded.. "Sure ok. You left the boiler room and leaned up against the wall and cried ..for Rick for Lori for the baby for Carl for yourself for Everyone..

The rest of the day you couldn't get Rick out your head. The look in his eyes. He was going to slowly kill himself though grief and guilt. You hadn't told anyone what happened in the boiler room you didn't want anyone else to know how far gone he was at this point. " How baby girl doing? You asked coming up to Carol who was doing clothes .

Baby was in a box cushion with blankets she was sleeping peacefully. " good she a very good baby despite the rough start "Carol replied. " How was Rick ?" she asked You sigh " not good " you answered honestly Carol sigh "The stress and Lori's death finally gotten to him " she said " but he can come back from this " you said .

You had to believe. that. At dinner everyone was gather around talking quietly eating you were sitting with Carl trying to get him to talk . He wasn't say much these days but you wouldn't give up . All the sudden everyone heard a noise coming from the open door leading from the tombs

.Glenn and Daryl stood up ready to defend .but they sat back down when Rick appeared In the doorway he looked around at everyone . His eyes feel on yours for a second you saw the old rick in there before he looked down to carl next to you. He walked in and walked back towards the cells.. Still no one said anything.

After a minute everyone went back to eating . After you finish eating you grab an extra plate for Rick you walked back to the cells and looked into his .. He was there fresh from a shower and was pulling on a shirt you forced yourself to look away . " here I thought you might be hungry " you said not looking at him just holding out the plate until he took it " thanks..." he said softly.. you nodded and turned and started to walk off when "y/n " you stop and turned

" yeah " you asked managing to look up at him Again you saw a glimpse of the old rick in there " I am sorry for earlier about yelling at you " he replied.. You nodded " I understand.. get some rest" you said and turned and walked off.

Later that night after you had settled baby girl down you slip out of your cell . You just wanted to check on Rick and make sure he was ok. You were half expecting to see his cell empty . But to your surprise and to your relief he was in his bunk asleep

. He was laying on his stomach face facing you one arm hanging over the side of the bunk. You couldn't help but smile and walked in and lifted his arm up onto the bed and cover him with a blanket and because you couldn't help yourself you leaned down and kiss his cheek softly. he stir and you froze as he shifted a little but he settled down and started snoring softly. you sigh and gave him one last look before heading back to bed.

AN: So this is my new story .. hope you guys like it I am hoping to keep this one update pretty regularity now that I have a new computer. So please vote or leave comments !! if you like what you read.