Songs for the Captors

Ride

I just wanna stay in the sun where I find I know it's hard sometimes. Pieces of peace in the sun's peace of mind I know It's hard sometimes.

"The thun'th tho bright," you mumble, "but I like it." You hate being in the sun because of the heat, but you like the light it brings. Your hometown was dark because you guys were pale compared to most. The only trolls that could stand the sun comfortingly were rainbow drinkers. You definitely were not a rainbow drinker of any sort.

You'd probably be an awesome one though and look hot while ridding people of their blood. You talked to 'Rosa once and she told you that different bloods have different flavors and that her favorite by far was violet that she managed to get her hands on while sneaking around.

You missed Dolorosa. You missed all of them.

"I can't see the sun anyway." Your companion at the moment, Redglare, grumbles. Redglare was a grumpy troll, you've noticed, but she didn't bother you much. You both were looking for Signless, her to explain that she supported him, and you just to hug him and cry all over the place. Either way, you both needed to see him.

Nighttime falls and you find a hive to sleep in. You say you found it, she says she imagined it because that's how the dreambubbles work. You imagine things and they appear. Whatever.

You spend the night telling yourself to her and herself to you. You told her about your time as a helmsman and she simply responds with, "I understand why you wanted to die. It's sweet that you wouldn't want Condesce in your position. You're a sweet boy," and then she continues cleaning her glasses and her cane without another word.

Yeah, I think about the end just way too much but it's fun to fantasize. On my enemies, I wouldn't wish who I was, but it's fun to fantasize.

"Redglare, you ever think that he wouldn't remember me?" You mutter, late at night and judging by her quiet breathing, she's either asleep or almost there.

"Wha?" Almost there.

"What if he doethn't remember me?"

"Psii, shut up. Why wouldn't he?"

You feel your eyes water and you sniffle, "Becauthe I haven't been with him for tho long and maybe Dithciple ith with him, and they jutht...forgot about me. I don't want that, I don't want to go thee him and that happenth."

"It won't happen then." She grumbles sleepily, "you always choose late at night to get terrible thoughts." She then falls alseep, and you force yourself to also, cuddling closer to her.

Oh oh ohh oh oh ohh I'm falling so I'm taking my time on my ride oh oh ohh I'm falling so I'm taking my time on my ride, taking my time on my ride.

"I told him I would die for him, you know." You say one day while the two of you are eating. She raises an eyebrow and looks at you curiously. You nod like she can see it and continue, "I would let Dualthcar thhoot me if it meant protecting him."

"I died for someone without even wanting to." She remarks and frowns at you when you sigh.

"I'd die for you," that's easy to say.

"I had multiple people I considered dying for." Redglare says and, for once, it's not sarcastic or mean. She says sincerely, "You're maybe one of those people, Psii. I've grown to like you enough. You ever end up in my court, I'll try my best to defend you if I become your laywer or at least make your sentence bearable." She smirks softly, "look at that, I actually trust someone again. It's probably because your smell is fantastic. Honey and apple. You're the first I've known to have two flavors."

"I don't have anything I could do for you," you shrug, "maybe I could move thhit for you. I dunno. I'd die for you too, but maybe not actually. I'm thtill thcared of dying and I'm already dead."

We all have a list that we would take a bullet for, a bullet for them, a bullet for you, a bullet for everyone in this room. But I don't see many bullets coming through, see many bullets coming through. Metaphorically I'm the man, but literally I don't know what I'd do.

"It'th hard talking about death, ethpecially when you can predict tho many. My thinkpan hurtth. In death, it'th harder to ignore the voiceth becauthe now they're jutht telling me to wait for them here." You sigh while she rubs your temples. She was acting pale for you, you think she was actually, but just stayed quiet about it. She runs her hand through your hair, which was growing longer and you weren't really bothering yourself with getting it cut. She never really says anything when you start to talk, the both of you finding it better to just let you talk and get everything out. "Dying theemth harder than living."

"I'd live for you," and that's hard to do, even harder when you know it's not true.

"You think too much," Redglare tells you while she's brushing her hair and getting ready for the day. Each day the two of you are traveling further and she imagines her hive at night, even if you don't actually have to sleep or even eat. It's just nice to. She tells you that you think too much when you were rambling about how Signless really might not remember you now. He was the best thing you've ever had, you couldn't just lose him. Redglare tells you not to worry and if he doesn't remember you, someone does. Redglare smiles softly, "I know I will."

I've been thinking too much, help me.

After days of searching, you do find them and he does remember you. You don't ever cried any harder in your entire life and afterlife. He just holds you while you do and talks to Redglare, who eventually joins your little group. She says she never really had friends in the first place and that you all made good company. You help her adjust, since it took you the longest yourself and you figured why not help someone else. 

~~~Finish line~~~

A/N: Jeezus, this is literally the best thing ever, I love my Redglare. I was on genius.com trynna figure out the lyrics meaning because my own interpretation wasn't working out and so I've been on there since like 8pm and now it's 11pm XD I tried to convey as much as the lyrics into the story itself and hopefully I did. This is also probably the longest thing I've ever written with 1131 words. Until next time. - Sollux