NO MORE DENIAL ▷ A. ARGENT

3. Throwing books

"Hey Ally,

I really fucking miss you and I'm sobbing right now, why didn't I fucking run in front of you? Well, I'm sorry Allison, I'm so fucking sorry. I cry myself to sleep every night, thinking about how happy the world if I died and you live, let's be honest.

The pack loved you more than they liked me, you were actually the only thing keeping them from keeping me in the dark, I mean, they still like me.

i like kira. she's alright. she's so awkward though.

my dad keeps pestering me to stop crying, he said, and I quote, "its just a silly school girl crush, get over it". I picked up my large book (I never knew the name of it) and threw it at him, while screaming "THAT IS NOT MY JOB!" it was sad how I'm sobbing, screaming, and throwing large books.

I remember the day we met, you were five and I was 4, and I went to a playground to see if the new slide was in or something, and I remember it was, it was fucking huge. I climbed up it and when I was about to go down, I saw the height and immediately backed out of it. and then the bastard Kit and his little biker gang, came up and saw me cowering away, they started to scream taunts and shit until you came up too, and you screamed at them to stop, they pushed you, I got angry and we beat them up.

That was the best day of my life.

I love you so much.

Carrie."

Dear, Carrie

I miss you too alright, and everything will get better, okay? I'm happy you didn't run in front of me, ok, if you ran in front of me, everyone's world would just.. Don't be sorry, ok, don't be sorry.

The pack loves you. Scott, Derek, Lydia, Stiles, Kira, and I love you so much, alright. You may have been kept in the dark, because everyone loved you and didn't want to see you in pain.

Your dad may be right, Carrie, you shouldn't be crying. Please just try and feel better, get your mind off of me, meet someone one new. It kills me (I'm sorry) to see you like that.  You need to keep fighting, alright? I am so sorry for getting you involved with this, I am so sorry.

I remember that day aswell, it plays in my head all day. It was the best day of my life, I wish we could just go back to when you didn't have to worry about werewolves, and kanimas, and other weird stuff, to when I wouldn't have to worry about you getting hurt by anything. I miss you so much, and it hurts me to see you like this, please stop crying over me.

I love you so much.

Allison.

Carrie will never get that letter.