Last night was so amazing. I couldn't even imagine anything like that happening. But it did and it was the best night of my life. I don't know when I will see Kian again though, I mean we live almost 48 hours away from each other. This just makes me want to move to Los Angeles even more. I DM him on twitter and talk about last night and how I want to stay in touch with him, but I know he's not going to see it. He doesn't follow me on twitter, and he probably has a million other girls trying to DM him. I'm still at Aaliyah's house and its almost 11:30 when my phone rings. It's Matt.
"Hey." I say probably sounding half asleep.
"Hey! Did I wake you up?"
"No I've been up for a while." I say.
"Oh okay, well can we do something today?" He says sounding eager.
"Um I don't know Matt. I just don't really feel up to it."
"Please. Sarah we need to talk," he pause, "about us." I really don't feel like talking about that right now, but I can't keep blowing him off like this.
"Okay, pick me up at my house at 12:30, k?" I say with an annoyed tone.
"Yea, okay. See ya then."
"Bye."
I grab my stuff and begin to walk out of Aaliyah's room when she turns over and looks at me.
"Wear are you going? Who was that on the phone? Matt?" She says with a yawn. I thought she was asleep when I was talking to him, but apparently not.
"Oh yea. He wants to meet up and talk."
"Oooh honey, but what about Kian?" She says jokingly as she raises her eyebrows.
I roll my eyes and continue walking out. "I have to go."
"Tell me how it goes!" she yells as I walk out
When I get to my house, I take a quick shower and throw on a cute crop top with high waisted jean shorts. Then I do my makeup and leave my hair down as it is. Almost curly but more wavy. I get a notification on my phone so I quickly grab it and check it. It's Matt texting me to tell me he's here. I grab my wallet and key, then walk outside and get in his car. We used to do this all the time when we were together, but that was a while ago. While we were dating, we went to a party and Matt got drunk and kissed another girl. After that I broke up with him but he kept trying to apologies and get back together, so this is pretty awkward.
"Hey." he says as I get in.
"Hey." I say back.
"So where are we going?" He asks me.
"I don't know. Where do you want to go?"
"Where ever you want to go." He says and looks at me.
"Surprise me." I say and make eye contact with him.
"Fine." He says and turns up the radio as he drives away.
A few minutes later he turns down the radio. "You hungry?"
"Yea." He pulls into the parking lot of Panera Bread. We used to come here all the time when we were together. He ordered for me and bought my lunch then we sat down.
"So, you wanted to talk?" I say taking a bite of my salad.
"Yea. Look, Sarah, I still like you... a lot, and I'm still so sorry about what happened," he pauses, "and I still want to get back together, but I need to know... Do you feel the same way?" Crap. I don't know what to say because I do still have feelings for him, but I don't know if I can take that risk again because I really don't trust him anymore.
