After in a different way

01

                 Chapter one

I didn't believe in love because I thought it was stupid, They could let me fall even when I needed that one person the most and when I finally felt real love that one person let me fall, Like everyone did before.

It was the Same old thing, But with a different story.
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I have waited for this moment for six months. I counted days off, Everyday was a little closer to this day: College.

Half of the night I couldn't sleep. I was looking on the school site and rereading the letter that arrived weeks ago telling me that I was accepted for Washington college. At the beginning I couldn't believe it, My mom was crying for hours and there was something telling me that she had never been so proud of me. I should have been proud and happy too, And I was, but there was something saying me that Washington college wasn't something right for me, I have always wanted to travel the world, When i told my mom that I wanted to travel the world she laughed, Telling me that I was crazy if I wouldnt go to Washington college, So I forget traveling and focused on college the last few months.

"Tessa, Are you awake?" I hear my Mothers voice call from downstairs.

I roll my eyes. "Yes I am." I yell back.

I leave my bed, And walk Straight to the bathroom. My eyes catch the mirror, My blonde hair is in a messy bun, I wanted it to crull yesterday in the afternoon but I was to nervous, In my head I was making scenes of how it will be there but I always ended up having the worst scenarios.

I undress and take a shower, Trying to keep my hair dry because I don't have time to let it dry. I wash my body with my favorite vanilla bodywash and I feel my muscles relax because of the warm water, I wish I could stay here all day.

My mother knocks at the door telling me that i'm getting late, That's the moment that I realize that I have to hurry up because I was day dreaming.

I turn the tap off and put a towel around my naked body. I brush my teeth and get my hair out of the bun. My hair is a little wavy because  I have slept with a bun.  I find curls way better than my normal straight hair.

when my body is dry I find my way back to my room and put on the outfit I chose a couple days ago. It's one of my favourite grey dresses with a mint green vest over top.

I look around, I won't be here a lot after today, I'll probably be here with holidays and maybe some exceptions.

I will miss the vanilla smell that was hanging throughout the house, I will miss my desk where I could work for hours, I will miss the rules of my mother in a weird way and even my bed that was just a bit too small and I once rolled out: I will miss it.

"Please, Hurry up Theresa." The voice of my mother is getting annoying and I roll my eyes, I definitely won't miss her whiny voice at all.

When I walk down the stairs I hear the sound of the doors of a cabinet opening - and closing - and when I enter the livingroom my mother is leaning against the kitchen dresser with a cup - probably filled with her favourite caramel coffee - in her hand.

"I'm so nervous, This is already my third coffee for this day." My mother says while she shakes her head and smiles at me.

"I could use some too." I tell her before I start making my own coffee.

"You should eat before we are leaving, it will be a long and heavy day for you." My mother explains and now it's my turn to shake my head. I can't eat when i'm nervous.