After in a different way

02

Loving him was like watching tv shows, It was addicting and I couldn't stop with it.

I remember that when I was ten years old I was writting in my diary, I was writting About the teachers that I didn't like, My mom who was being mean to me, My brother who was always annoying me and about the boys that I liked when I was in 5th grade.

Now eight years later my life has changed a lot. I realize that teachers are here to help me, My mom is my bestfriend, My brother died and love isn't  really a thing in my life.

I think you're the only one who can change your own life, Life can go anywhere, There will be ups And downs but its you who will choose the ups or the downs in life.

They told me not the believe in love because once you did you were blind and you could mess up everything but they didn't tell me that it was the best feeling in the world.
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My mother and I decorated and organized half of the room, I got candless, A lot pillows on my bed, And some of my favorite books and organized my school stuff and I even did my clothes in my small closet.

That took us an hour, after that my mother gave me a speech telling me that I have to open up for new people, To get some friends, to get good grades and to have some fun and then she left me with tears in her eyes.

Iknow that she is right, I know that I have to open myself for people but it feels safe when I keep people far away so they cant hurt me in anyway.

The door flies open and I hear three laughs filling up the room.

I close my school books.

Steph, Hardin and Some other girl with pink hair are walk in.

"Hey Tessa." Steph says. "You should have come with us, I'm sure you were bored." Says Steph voice again.

"Well, To be honest I wasn't bored." I tell her, Hoping that she will tell her friends to leave so I can go to bed.

I leave the bed and I get the feeling that i'm standing really awkwardly.

Steph hand is conected with Hardins his hand. Are they together?

"I'm Molly, The sweetest and prettiest friend of steph friends." The girl with the bright pink hair says and a laugh leaves my mouth.

"I'm Tessa, I'm the newest friend of Steph." I say hoping that she get my Joke, And she does because a smile  appears on her face.

"Sharing a room doesn't mean being friends." Hardin says and I can't help myself but I  roll my eyes.

Steph start laughing but as soon she realize that i'm still in the Same room as her she stops.

"Well, I like you Tess." Says apparently the girl with the name Molly, I smile at her letting her know that i appreciatie it.

"Just ignore us." Steph says.

This is one of the Reasons I dont want to share my room with a punk, She invites friends over at ten oclock.

The three friends sit down on the bed. Hardin is spread all over the bed. Steph's has her legs crossen over eachother and Molly leans against the wall with Both her legs stretched out.

I take a seat on my bed again trying to ignore the three teenagers while I start rereading my schoolbooks for the second time.

But I cant concentrate, The three friends are telling each other story's About their own life. Steph tells them she was in love with a girl once, Molly is letting her friends know that she dated two boys at the same time a while ago and Hardin says he never wants to marry because he thinks it's stupid and I agree with it but I would never tell him.