part two
Recap: I bump into something hard. I barely feel it, I'm so numb but I acknowledge it. I look up and I'm met with those beautiful blue eyes that used to look at me with love. Those pink lips I used to kiss. That smile that haunts me still. You're here again.
I bearly breathe . "Luke."
Your p.o.v
My breathing is shallow. My heart is beating a million miles an hour. I'm almost sure he can hear it. Not that he would care about my heart anymore. He's looking at me but I can't look at him again.
"S-sorry." I stammer out still not looking at him and turning to walk away. The tears come. After weeks of telling myself I'm stronger than a sobbing mess, one look at him and I come crumbling down. I can't face this again.
Speed walking down the sidewalk, I let the tears that I thought dried up long ago, stream down my face. God I'm so pathetic. I mean I must be. He walked out on me because I wasn't good enough, pretty enough, outgoing enough for him. Actually I don't even know why that mother fudging popsicle stick walked out on me.
It's a few seconds before I hear it and it's so quiet I think I'm imagining it but it then it happens again. This time louder than before.
"Y/N!" I take a deep breath and shut my eyes tightly as I turn around to face him. Opening my eyes I see him..He's just a foot away from me.
"What is it Lucas?" He cringed. I only called him Lucas when I was mad at him.
"I need to talk to you..i need to apologise-" I interrupted him then.
"You ass hat! Nipple jerk! You walked out on me three frikin months ago without an explanation or even a bloody goodbye and now you want to apologise?" I shout "I don't give a frack!" I turned and started to walk away again. It started pouring rain again. Oh how ironic! Really I mean this is just great I thought.
"I was scared!" He called after me, making me stop and turn around.
"What?"
"I was scared ok? The band was getting bigger and we were busier. I never got to spend that much time with you and we were getting distant. I couldn't stand it..watching as I slowly lost you so I left. I loved you Cutie and I still do. So much It hurts." He exclaimed. Cutie. Ouch that was my favourite nickname but now it feels like he used the word to stab me in the chest.
"It hurts huh? Am I supposed to feel bad? Newsflash numb nuts! You left me with nothing. I had no closure! You had me thinking I wasn't good enough for you and you famousness. I was a mess. I'm so sick of your holier than thou, shit on my shoe attitude! You broke me luke!" I whisper the last part. My voice is hoarse from all the shouting, I'm soaked from the rain that is still pouring down and we are getting weird stares because we are shouting at each other on a sidewalk.
I'm done. I'm so done.
I turn about to walk away again when his hand latches on to my wrist and he pulls me into his chest.
"I'm sorry but I'm not losing you again." He murmurs before he smashes his lips to mine. I kiss him back both eagerly and angrily, relishing the feel of his lips on mine. He pulls back after a while.
"I love you so much Y/N."
"I love you too dufus." I mumble pulling his lips back to mine.
~LilNuggetGirl~ Out. 💙
