Suicide Hotline || Grayson Dolan

Three.

Clara's p.o.v

•I woke up early and had a shower. I undressed myself and looked in the mirror. My whole body, damaged, by me.
Cuts and scars everywhere. Even though they were healing, it was still evidence of the bad times and I regret hurting myself completely because now, even though my thoughts and negativity was healed my body wasn't and it just brings back the memories and the hurting that I used to experience every day.

I went on to wash my self and I got dressed into jeans and an oversized sweater. I left my medium-length dirty blonde, almost brown, hair down and naturally straight. I did my usual makeup and headed to school.

Whilst I was walking alone, I thought about Grayson's call the night before. I felt bad for knowing all this information about him. The fact that he has no idea that he talks to a girl ,who he never would have talked to in real life, about something as personal as what he is going through makes me guilty but then again, he did say that I was helping him.

I walked with Kenz for a bit and we talked about normal things. She bragged about her boyfriend and I laughed about being forever single.

The bell rang and headed to first period. I walked in and Grayson was sitting there with his hood up and he looked down at his hands and he was playing with his fingers, looking really bored.

When I entered he looked up, I smiled at him and he just stared back at me, not taking his eyes off me until I sat down behind him.

He realised he was staring and turned around looking embarrassed.

I got on with my work and stood up when the lesson ended. Just as I was about to leave I felt a light tap on my shoulder, I turned around and it was Grayson, looking nervous.

"Hi" he mumbled.

I was really confused but I replyed and said "hey" afterwards.
He proceeded and said,
"I...um, was just wondering.... Well.. Haha if you want to study at lunch or something. If you don't..... It doesn't matter but, ahah, you don't have to... I was jus wondering.

He looked down looking embarrassed.

I smiled awkwardly and replied with,
"Of course!"
He sighed with relief and walked out of class.

Grayson's p.o.v

I was trying to talk to someone like the girl on the hotline said. I chose Clara because I know she is friendly and, well, she has been through a lot so if I do open up to her she will understand. I am doing this because of the suicide hotline. It will help me. I want to make a few more friends.

At lunch...

Clara's p.o.v

I sat at a lunch table in the cafeteria waiting for Grayson. I knew that I was the person that he was talking to because of the advice I gave him on the hotline. He said goodbye to one of his 'friends' and waved, without smiling.
He sat down next to me and started getting his books out. It was getting really hot in the cafeteria so he took his hoodie off.

It was the first time I had properly seen his face and, I admit, he was hot. As he was lifting up his sweater his shirt came up too and on the side of his body  a large cut and bruise, about the size of his hand.

"Grayson, w-what's that?" I said pointing at the injury.
He quickly pulled his shirt down and stuttered.
"Oh-uh I was haha, um I fell. He said unconvincingly.

I just left it and said okay.

We studied for all of lunch and then we walked to our next lesson together. And talked a bit.

"So, where snouts do you live?" He asked when he got more comfortable with talking to me.

"Lonturn road, it's about 10 minutes away from school." I replied cheerfully.

"Really? I live there too, that's so cool!" He replied. I looked at his face and he smiled, not a fake smile, a real, genuine smile. The first time I had ever seen him smile properly.

After that I said, "Well, I have my car so I can drive us both home if you like."

He agreed to and we decided to meet outside school after our last period.

After school...

His hoodie was back on and his hood was up. He was leaning against the building on his phone. I walked up and nudged him on the arm. He took out his headphones and pulled his hood down.

We walked to my car and talked a bit. When we got to my house we got out.

"You can come over if you want."
I offered.

"Oh my dad probably wants me home, but we should definitely do another day." He replied looking sad.

"Okay, that's fine see you later, you can text me though."
He gave me his number and left.

I Looked at the clock and it read 17:58. I got my phone ready and waited for Grayson's call. At quarter past I went onto the hotline and waited, his call came through a few moments later.

Me: Hello, welcome to the suicide hotline, how may I help you?

Grayson: Hello, it's Grayson.

Me: How did it go?

Grayson: I talked to a girl named Clara, I studied with her at lunch and we rode home together. She is really nice to talk to and I am going to try to talk to her more.

Me: Thats great news, try and get close to her, or someone, anyone, close enough to tell her what's wrong and she may open up a bit too and be able to help you.

We talked a bit more and then the call ended. Not only was I going to help him during our chats on the call but I was going to be there for him personally aswell.

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Hi guys,
Hope you liked this little chapter. They have started talking. Sorry if it is boring but it will get more exciting a romantic (😉) during the coming chapters. Also, when Grayson says 'haha' or something it's supposed to be an awkward laugh.
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Love you,
Jess