One of the weeks where my depression was at its all time low and I really started questioning things around me I avoided Henry at every turn to the point where I avoided going to our building because I didn't want him to see me like this I sat in class somewhere I hadn't been in over a month and scribbled into my desk because my grades were far to terrible to save now so why even try. " Ms. Gacey care to pay attention you haven't been here in over a month." I shrugged and ask why she knew I wasn't going to pass her class so why bother. She stared at me and told me step out into the hallway so she could talk to me If I did I would just leave the school so that's what I did. While walking I couldn't fight the impending sorrow wrapping it self around my heart because of how much I was overthinking things.
I stood in front the building Henry and I called our own and thought about how all my problems would disappear If I went to the roof and jumped I wouldn't feel..I don't want to feel anything anymore. I walked inside and ran up the stairs to the top floor and passed the room where Henry and I always sat in and talked and started tearing up because I'd be leaving him behind but He'd get over it I knew he would. " Farrah ?" I heard someone call to me I turned around to see Henry peeking out of the room with a worried expression on his face. " Are you alright whats wrong ?" he slowly approached me and tried to grab my face but I backed away. " I can't hold on anymore Henry this sadness is crippling and I feel like I'm going to cave in and break if I keep staying here." Henry hugged me and held me and I broke in his arms. " If your hearts broken and you can't find some of the pieces by all means take some of mine to fit because I can't lose you Farrah you're all I have the world would be too fucked up without you and it would drive me over the edge if I didn't have you to hold." I pulled away enough to look at him and his eyes were watering I really meant a lot to him my psychopathic Romeo. " I hate everything and myself Henry I don't want you to hurt because of me being distant." Henry kissed me and said while his voice broke "Don't hate me because you Hate yourself I'll love you regardless of it." He said he loved me and that made me break even more he held me as I cried I needed Henry I didn't want to feel anything for anyone aside from him.
