11/7/13
Well uh hi, I guess,
Anyway, I'm not gonna state a name because that is not important. Anyway, I have to be honest with you. I've known you for quite sometime now and, I honestly, never really saw myself liking you in any other way than a friend/brother way.
Ugh this is so embarrassing. Anyway, I must confess, that I fell for you. Like really hard. I get/got jealous whenever you would talk about 'someone' or when you'd avoid me. That, literally has made my heart hurt.
Anyway, I never planned on liking you in any freaking way. But guess what?! I was caught off guard. I really dont care if you ever see this or if you do see this, I highly doubt you'll care. But oh well.
Sometimes I wonder, am I invisible to you? Like, do you ever notice me anymore? Ha. Most likely not. But that's perfectly fine by me.
I miss you. Yeah. I know you never cared. And that everything that you said was a lie. But oh well. I'll get over it. And you. I'll just keep telling myself I hate you, until I finally get over you. It may take a while, but I'll do it.
Meh, I really should never have believed you when you said you'd never break my heart. 'I'm keeping it for safe keeping.' Ha, liar. You broke it. You crushed it! And now? Now you wont speak to me. But I forgot. I'm not as important as him, or, her.
Just, you both piss me off. But me being me, I'll just say I'm fine and that I'm not mad at you both. The funny thing is, you believe me every time. Ha. Oh well I guess.
Sigh, its all very pointless writing this.
Bleh, you dont care. So please, dont act like you do. Just know, I trusted you with something, and in the process, you broke it. But oh well, I'll just put on a smile and act like I'm fine. I'll act like its not killing me not to talk to you, when deep down, it hurts. But I'll just smile and be happy your happy. c:
RiRi.
