Hope is a star

How it feels...

Authors Note: Thank you so much for everyone who read my previous chapter  followed and voted for me, a special thanks to Otaku_ lover022 ,Sensations team also thank you Butterflydab_ and Bassante Abelrazik , I am so happy that you like my story I will continue for sure and will be publishing a chapter every three days   the last one was short this one is longer I will try to put in as much of the story in each chapter as I can since it will be considerably long, once again thank you for your support , without further a do here is the chapter enjoy! ;)

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year 1788 December the 9nth,

Previously ..." God knows when we will see land again"

To be honest... I'm not looking forward to it , because making it to land means another journey to the stage with an auctioneer tagging prices on us , and completely forgetting every bit of humanity we had left , while the crowd screams for the young women slaves , and the kids , the smell of puke , and blood fills my lungs, if we don't get any fresh air in , I'm bound to lose it , and I'm well aware of the consequences....

The only way they would ever let me off the hook is if my intentions somehow brought them a great fortune ! , But if I so happen to bring them misfortune , ya you get it -count your blessings - anyhow I'm still going to try to escape , because no way in hell am I going to just give in , if there's anything I learned from my love ones who departed a while ago , is never give up! so even though I might end up dying in the attempt of making a run for dear life ill still try , when I think of the chances of me actually escaping I have good twenty percent , which is much higher than five right? and yes I tried to escape several times before, but ended up hurt in the process I almost gave up if it weren't for that master piece of a plan that just popped up in my head! This isn't the first time I come up with such a mischievous plan but hey whose counting?

"Alexis!" that voice of the girl who insists on befriending me cut through my thoughts I already know what she wants but I gave up on such a thing , because its meaningless this girl seems to not understand that our life is nothing but sadness, such a thing as friendship does not exist in our life happiness is not a choice we can simply make nor , a thing we are blessed with but , in all my years of being a slave I had never seen someone with such optimism about our situation other than her, that girl tiara , that fool... " just stop trying tiara I will not become your friend , such a thing does not exist in our life , so give up!!!" I bluntly blurted out these words as if it was the most oblivious thing in the world , the slaves surrounding me seemed to agree because they did not protest they simply nodded , and then tiaras face darkened as my words registered into that thick scull of hers , think again they did not.... because what she said next pierced my heart.   

" No Alexis , I will never give up on you and we will find happiness together I promise!! no matter what you say or tell me I will not give up on this life , that is not what we deserve , we deserve a life full of happiness or at least a chance at it, not  never ending despair! ahh..aaaa" my eyes widen in horror as she dropped to her knees , winching in pain as her head hit the ground , that was the last straw for her , she officially drove our merchants mad!

Then again she always acts like this thinking she can get away with ,it she will never understand that this is no joke, instead she insists on being annoying and befriending  me look what that has brought her.... she should know by now that I'm not interested whatsoever in her so called friendship.

That was a lie ..... it does not exist in our world , it does not in mine anyhow....

" Your pathetic , you should have just listened to that smart helpless salve , you believe you can make a friend out of her ha! your new here right *hiccup*  well most of the people you see have been born into being the lowlifes that they are, they are latterly lifeless corpses*Hiccup*  but, they do for good servants or should I say SLAVES ahahahahahaahah your not even good enough to be called anything else !!!! watch as your colors fade too!!!!" spouted an old fat merchant who just happens to stuff his face all the time, tiara just watched him lecture her with eyes as wide as saucers, I can see the pain in them , its visible she was about to cry... I feel bad for her but she should have known better than this.

As that old bastard walked away from tiara , more like wobbled he was drunk from all the wine he drank...that pig.

Tiara was still on the floor too dumbfounded I guess since she didn't get up and dust herself off , yes I'm being rude , she was hurt both mentally and physically I think now she gets it... I'll go calm her down , now that she understands our life is miserable.

I was walking towards her as fast as I could but the chains on me made it hard ,I reached her and bended down as I spoke softly , "It's alright we all are broken beyond repair..." yes I know I suck at soothing people but no one hired me. She looked up to me with teary eyes and smiled , who knew? I actually made her feel better , " Thank you Alexis , but you are wrong were not broken , were only bent and we can make a comeback we will find our happiness, I promise " this girl is just as stupid as ever but , so am I .

I smiled reassuringly , and her face brightened up , it was scary... " so does this mean were friends now!? huh?!!! tell me!!!" I felt my face drop " uhhg... um... well we can be closer than fellow slave mates I guess?" she seemed happy at my reply since she giggled a bit and then what happened next was something I could not comprehend she bounced onto me and hugged me tears still streaming down her face ..."Thank you so much.." I looked at her with a quizzical facial expression and then asked " for what?" , "if anything it was my fault , should you not have tried to you befriend me you wouldn't have been hurt like this! oh... my your arm and leg their bleeding! and your heads got bruises on its bruises , we need to get you help..." she looked at me and smiled widely "it's okay I'll be fine " I surged off her reply and tended to her wounds immediately...

She fell asleep next to me soon after, I guess I kind of like her as a younger sister, my sister I miss her ... this leaves me wondering how she is doing ... well ill never know , but at this point it didn't matter .... no ,not anymore anyway.... I made a promise to live on In this cruel world, only for my family they wanted me to be happy no matter what , even when they were greeted with their death , they were smiling , I promised to live but not to love so no matter what, I will not ever love this life....

But even though I say that , even though I don't want to think about the possibility of me living happily, I really wanted that, I really want to experience the warm fuzzy feeling of being happy and loved, I want to roll into my parents arms again, I want to run around chasing my siblings barefoot on creaking wood again, I want to embrace my childhood friend that died protecting me again, I really do!! I really want to be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt a liquid streaming down my face , I touched my cheek and found out that I was crying , I'm crying I thought I had forgotten how to , there was no way I could cry anymore I lost all my tears, I am supposed to be lifeless, helpless ,emotionless but, seeing those tears gave me hope , hope that maybe I can still have a little bit of faith in this heartless world , I might even experience happiness again one day maybe...just maybe... what am I thinking hhhh lets sleep for the night ..... I closed my eyes but I couldn't help the feeling that I will encounter someone who will change my life entirely tomorrow .... if there will be a tomorrow , this person, just  who is this person?..... I kept asking questions in my head as I swept into the abyss of darkness.   

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Authors note: Thank you for reading and do not forget to vote follow and comment or review  on this chapter sorry for the mistakes you may find... I hope to meet your expectations for this Novel, stay tuned!  :)